2006;

the last entry.

2006-12-29T19:06:00.000+08:00

listen:
someone out there will always love you.

hello cant believe its my 400th entry of this blog
i mean i never stay at a blog that long enough
thanks to many of you here who actually reads my blog
bout an avg of 40-60 a day, not many, but definitely enough to keep me going
and esp since most of the entries were kind of rubbishy,
just talking bout what i did each day, lol. so thanks so much.

and the reason why i posted that pic was cos we often take things for granted
and this is why many of us like to succumb to this what u call as emoness
whenever we are alone, and you always felt like there isnt anyone there who can understand
but you can be so wrong, they want to, its just you not giving them a chance to.
anyway this xmas was normal to me and i tot i wasnt on santa's list
and it was kind of perfectly okay to me since i have been like bad all year
not studying much, not working hard enough, not running well
in fact 2006 is a year i really dread to recall
not that it's totally bad, i met many great friends this year, strengthen a few ties,
and yea unfortunately unable to maintain some others.
but im really glad im on a few friends' mind this christmas
despite not even doing anything [maybe except typing the long list of thanks]
cheryl got me a present, that i knew long ago.
some others got me christmas cards, which was really sweet and yes nonetheless surprising
loong told me he got me sth from newzealand too! :D
and den divya said she also got me sth from china
and den last night jie told me he actually got me an xmas present,
but was saying hoping i wouldnt find it plain
haha he actually wanted to get me big patrick! but it was sold out.
but i really wouldnt mind what the thing is, because its really the thought that counts
and that there is always someone out there really cares,
like a star, not always seen but always there.

2006 has not been a really good year for me, i fell, hurt myself
hadnt really got up, and fell again.
but i have learnt many lessons
that success really cannot be achieved without hard work
that focus is an important element in sucess
and that there are some things or people we are meant not to have

so we need to know that and need to let go
a long hard and painful process,
even if you dowan to let go, but you know you have to.
but in that way
you've learned to live life better. It's hard
yet sometimes we have to... for ourselves
and for others.

as much as im dreading the school to start
[ihateschoolihateschoolihateschool]
i want this 2006 to be gone and hopefully a much better 2007 to come
and this is my new year resolutions cum christmas wishes:
-to be a good christian
-to be a good student
-to be a good runner
-to be a good dancer
-to be a good friend.

2007 will be a busy year, for me and for many of you too.
but let's make the best of each day and leave no worries for tomorrow
pardon me if i get stressed and break down on you or sth
which i think may actually happen considering the workload but haha whatever.

anyway 31st december is just like two days away.
and yes my bet with angie and cheryl, the deadline will be on sunday.
and yes im definitely winning! wahahaa quite a good start to the new year.
[then again, did i really want to win this bet?]
speaking which, i want to go down to vivocity for countdown!
provided that there isnt any trg the next day and my dad's nice to let me too.
and oh yes 31st december is sara's bdae! happy birthday in advance! (:

and speaking of birthdays, due to the [many] debts im in,
i would like to apologise to those whose bdaes fall in de first few mths
because i doubt i have the ability to get anything for you pple
so everybody don get me anything for my bdae yea. so i wont feel guilty. haha.
okay im making an effort to save up already so yea. (: pardon me.

so, a new year will come! new bag new pencilcase same old look brand new me.
and there gna be a post-xmas cum new year class party at anqing's house! :D
hope it will be fun! one last fun before the school starts zzz.

oh and i was listening to this song : dancing in the moonlight
haha i think it will be so super nice and sweet
to actually dance in the moonlight
dont you think so (:

i hope my blog has been an interesting read to all of you this year
and that somehow it helps you in some way, maybe learning from the mistakes i did
or new lessons i learnt and blogged bout it.

anyway if i have a new blog or something i will try to inform you all yea.
or maybe i keep it secretive and you shall try to search yea. lol.

farewell and may all of you have a blessed 2007 ((:

2006-12-27T23:29:00.001+08:00

[edited]
hello hello! i think it took almost an eternity to load this page.
well, almost. the internet connection is really bad now,
due to whatever earthquake or flooding or whatsoever reason
whichever. now i know my patience was running out
each time each site was like l-oa-d--in--g
even msn, cudnt sign in sometimes and kept getting signed out zz.
and guess what i just heard! they said its gna take three weeks to repair this. WOW.

been raining alot these days, and yest trg was cancelled cos of that -_-
and speaking which, RAIN [the korean actor] is comin to sg!
sadly. i. have. no. money. to. go. to. his. concert. lemme. cry.
so had trg today, i think i almost died. must be due to the amt of fats ive been eating.
like- icecream. lol.
anyway there gna be easy run tmr at mac but my shoes were already wet so zzzz.
divya came for trg today finally! i mean after her china trip.
have alot of interesting stories~ i also want go holiday.

and i went to pluck eyebrow! by myself. as in i pluck myself lol.
ehh ouch its super pain. but i super happy with the end result
cos its neater now i guess! i mean my eyebrows. haha kay whatever.

dance today. and i saw mq on de train! talk bout coincidence.
and his new hairstyle roxorz =.= haha without the long fringe!
look less girl and look more prawn! [inside joke.]
anyway it was fun catching up. and no i don mean running.
dance was okay, new steps but uhh im still quite noob.
benny ong damn lousy can keep mistaking. haha okay i was just joking.
and samuel came over with his fren to do some popping with benny!
i think popping is quite cool. and they attempt to teach me body wave
i mean its cool but a girl doing it = weird. i prefer watching. free show.

oh yea i think war and beauty is going to be aired on channel U soon
january 2nd i think. GO WATCH IT. its damn cool.
u don watch it ure not cool. really. maybe u can be hot tho.
its bout how the imperial ladies being evil to outsmart each other.
just like deathnote. except this time is girls. and, more underhand means.
and the girls are damn pretty. wahlau.
i got proof :
[click on image to enlarge]

oh yes and in case u have been sleeping and not playing gb
gb has like this christmas lucky draw thing and i have been winning lotsa gold without playin
so i finally got my msscarlet nice clothings! shes smiling now.
play gb with me den u can see! haha. thats cos i forgot the name of the clothings. smart.

oh and i realised the internet connection seemed much better now.
maybe cos im using starhub. *advertising*

roy just told me miss chai is leaving! omg im so sad. shes such a nice tchr!
always ask me hows my trg. always being so amiable. wahlau
all those i want to leave still sticking their butts in rj
and the nice ones are leaving. what is this.

anyway if u forget how i look like:

err. not that the picture helps much. but whatever be contented, be very contented.
ohwels maybe i will edit this post with more pics when i upload, if i feel like it.
feel. like. it.
okay up with more pics!
[click on pics to enlarge]

one.

two.

three.

i bet u dint know i can cam-whore one too right.
sorry but cos my sister got a new phone [!@#$%^&]
and hers got nice camera so im helping her to test [im ever so kind]
and i think u must be thinking how come the last pic so fanciful right
thats cos when i editing the last pic i realised de presence of brushes -_-
ohwels.

have a nice RAINY day.

2006-12-25T19:33:00.000+08:00

hahaha hey all once again on this blessed day (:
using biying's created blogskin for today's christmas
hahaha find it quite nice, and i dowan to have other themes like
last christmas or something. yinny's one is nice too, but its too cute, so not me lol.

anyway i spent today with my family! (:
we ate lunch at sakae sushi YUMS. totally love it. haha.
and den it was movie - night at the musuem! :D
the movie is a total hit, cool funny and everything. 10/5. lol.
just catch that movie yea esp since the hols is coming to an end soon...zzz.

by the way, loong was giving thanks in his blog!
yay im one of the privileged few to get a shout-out :

hahaha that was really sweet.
and i shall give thanks too, i don think i have any other chance to do so.
[in case you dint know, this is the 398th entry. im closing this blog after 400th.]
i shall try to thank as many pple as possible
even tho i know there are going to be many pple whom i would still miss out in de end zzz
just.. pardon me. haha christmas is the time to forgive too! lame.

Lord:
thanks for every single thing in my life, to protect my loved ones as well as myself. and to forgive me again and again each time i made a mistake. im sorry i have been bad this year, not working hard towards my goals in both my running and cross. but i will for next year, to give this last lap my best shot. may you be with me and work with me towards this and happy birthday! (:

family:
thanks for accomodating my busy schedule and all, even tho i know dad and mum wasnt at all pleased whenever i return home late due to my trainings. thanks for a comfortable home and meals. thanks sis for always there for me, and bro for brightening [and irritating] each day.

cheryl:
hello hello. even tho ure in australia now, haha but this is for you. thanks for ALL the times with me, crazying with me, listening to my sad stuffs and giving advices and all. all those midnight calls and chat i will never forget, and tho sometimes we irritate each other, but LOL thats what best friends are for! to irritate each other :D thanks for the xmas gift in advance! tho i dunno what it is. lol. but yea you alr bought it and sorry for not being able to get anything for you. thanks for going thru alot of things with me, and i don care if anyone hates you or hates us, i will still love you and love us all the same! ((: may you have a blessed relationship with shawn and success in both ur studies and hockey!

angie:
gie! haha knew you last year thru peixuan, and i nvr ever knew that we would be such great friends now. fate let it be and im glad it is that way. meeting you is one of the best things happen in my life, and i wanna thank for all the crazy moments shared and i will never forget that heart-to-heart talk at orchard libary that day. thanks for always giving me hope each time i felt like giving up, thanks for talking me round each time i felt like a loser, thanks for listening to all my moans and supporting me thruout. you are beautiful inside and out, and i really hope you will be loved by someone really nice and not be hurt again. love you!

suihui:
i think 10000-word essay still wont be enough for a thankyou essay. been like 5 years now, and you are still such a great inspiration and motivation to me. your never-say-die attitude in every single thing you do, especially in running, inspired me the most and im glad i have you as my running partner and movtivator thru the cedar cross trainings and without you, i wouldnt have made it and i probably wouldnt even be in rj now. and what inspired me more is the true christianity in you, never backstab people, always so true so sincere and thats what everyone likes about you. you even attract a million lesbians LOL. and i always talk about you to my rj friends, bout how much you inspired me and all. i missed alot of our times! will never forget how hard we train, how we ran together, how we work together in the obstacles department of OAC, how we went crazy practising the dance for the campfire, how we really danced on that night and how we were so sad to part, and how you cried and each time i just sat there and watched you cry and felt such pain in my heart, how we scolded the sec 3 batch together and scared them like hell, how we talked thru the night in the camp, how we prayed together before each race.. there are so many memories. you are an angel sent from above, close to my heart. and i think it rocks more that ure just a day older than me :D you know and i know and we know that i love you. (:

baoyue:
bao! really. thanks for alot of things. i know the only time i cried so hard it was you who see it. or rather hear it. lol. because that was over the phone. thanks for being there for all my heartbreaking moments and thanks for always listening to all my crap and all my long list of history and my stories and always felt so much for me, like as tho you were me. you are just like a younger sister to me and i promise you i will never allow anyone to hurt you because if they hurt you they are hurting me too. thanks for always willing to listen, and always there if i want to. and i want to tell you, i will be there for you too. may God bless you with a great year ahead! may you enter your dream jc- ajc and den do well in there. (:

divya:
ure seriously crazy! haha. as in crazy cos ure so fast, breaking all the records in all the running events and breaking all the tamil boys' hearts too. lol. your bubbly self never fail to rub off others too, including me. thanks for adding that great amount of sunshine in my rj trainings, esp now we only have each other as the rest of the cedarxcteam left for different jcs. thanks for listening to my crap and be excited for me in various stuffs [you know what] and im so glad for you and him, cherish each other yea. (: god bless both of you!

audrey:
audd! ure my another inspiration in my life. i will never forget that sentence you said after a failed race when i asked if you were okay. you said 'its not the end that matters, its the journey.' since then, it changed my attitude towards many things, and im glad that it is so. thanks for being such a great senior in my cedar life, and always care so much for me. thanks for bring me to christ, thanks for all the advice, thanks for the bible you got for me, thanks for christian stuffs you gotten for me to allow me to be closer to Him, and thanks for cherishing our friendship so much and tho we are like in different schs and not talking often, i just want you to know that, you made a difference in someone's life and that is me. (:

michelle:
michh! haha actually all i wanted to say was all in your birthday's post. but just wanna thank you again for all these times in sec three and four, i know we may have drifted now due to different schs, schedules and all, but you are definitely one friend i will never forget. continue be your bubbly self and spread all your jokes and lameness around! love. (:

sara:
thanks for like all the times in sec three and four too! for the cookies you made YUM, for every single small note you wrote for me to encourage me, to cheer me up etc. i still keep them. (: thanks for the crazy times you spent with me, like attempting to dry umbrella out of the window of the bus and then almost gave some guy a pad instead of tissue on the bus, all these i will nvr forget man. those bus journey home are like one of the best memories in cedar, and im touched you cherished our friendship alot. god bless you in your studies and with ahem! (:

szemin:
hello captain szemin! haha glad ure doing so well in nj canoeing! heard you got nationals gold. woah. thanks for like all de really funny retarded crazy wonderful moments in cedar, in our cross trainings and everything. thanks for like accompanying me in many things, and i wont forget that day when we ate mcdonalds together, just the two of us, moaning before the nationals cross 2004. and thanks for adding so much laughter in my life, and always acting like a big sister to all of us in the team. miss you so much! continue to do well in ur canoeing and studies yea, which i believe is a no problem to you at all! (:

tricia:
hello! thanks for alot of things, always encouraging me and always being there for me. i rmbed once when i was really stressed before a school race and you told me 'but caijing, you work well under stress' and thereafter i won the race, and i never forget what you told me. you are an amazing person, and im glad that i met you, and able to run and train with you in cedar. tho you arent in running now, i pray that you will do well in all that you do and able to strive in vj.

agnes & yuqin:
thanks so much for my bdae present! even tho im unable to get both of you any. :/ esp since both of you are in vj now. thanks for the times in sec 1 and 2, and im glad we managed to stay close too in sec3 and 4, and im glad both of you are doing well in ur sch now. hope one day we can catch up soon! which is probably after the As lol. but anyway, may god bless both of you in every way!

stephanie:
step! haha know you only this year but im glad i do. thanks for accompanying me thru the tough rj trainings and sharing many stuffs and all. may we two have a great 2007 together in our cross! haha. love (:

jie [khing]:
hello jie! we have been godsisters for like, three years plus already? hahaha woah. thats really cool. everyone is always puzzled at the jie thing since you are a GUY lol, but yea thats the fun isnt it. thanks for like being such a funny jie and doing all the extraordinary things that amaze me. and thanks for willing to talk to me on the phone for long hours back when i was in cedar, and talking lotsa crap and never failing to cheer me up. thanks for giving me lotsa advice in many things and thanks for being an inspiration to me in your own way, to love a person for who they are. may God bless you and lynn! ehh i be ur bridemaid leh hahaha.

xide:
xeed! know you for like three years plus too. glad i know you. thanks for a zillion million willion things youve done, thanks for ever being so sweet, so nice and touched me with every single little thing you do. thanks for buying and sharing famous amos cookies you know i love them! thanks for always making sure im not neglected when your friends are around. thanks for always making time for me even tho ure always so busy with ur father's company stuffs, school projects and all. i think you are going to make it big one day. really. thanks for always being such a gentleman even tho we know each other for long already. thanks for all this friendship and i hope it will last for as long as it can! (:

loong:
hello! im glad im so glad ure in rj cross. because i seriously dunno what will happen if you aint. hahaa. thanks for inspiring me too! and thanks for the youknowwhat thing to make me work towards my goal. and thanks for the kaka jersey! you know i never felt so touched in my life when i opened my bag in my GP class and i found the jersey inside. HOW YOU MANAGED TO PUT THAT IN WITHOUT ANYONE NOTICING. lol. thanks for always going home after trg, walking to the mrt station all the journeys will be those memories i will never forget. thanks for putting up with my crap too, and thanks for not biting my head off when i accidentally spoilt ur slippers LOL. and thanks for walking me home dat day too. (: and most importantly, thanks for including me in your give-thanks list. may God bless you in both ur studies and cross! run well study well! (:

roy:
hey retarded roy thanks for like chatting with me thru night almost everyday on msn. i think i wont even bother signing in msn if not for all your crap talk. thanks for all the rubbish we talked, especially the countries-visiting and the ard the world in 800000 days thing. thanks for always allow me to laugh at you and suan you and thanks for putting up with my nonsense too. thanks for teaching me chem when you just returned from your trip lol. thanks for playing gb with me! thanks for studying with me that day! thanks for just being you! but no thanks for no present from australia! lol. no lar its okay i understand you cant get the seashell from de ocean due to whatever reason/excuse that im not bothered to take down lol. may God bless you! (:

ronghua & farrell:
hey! know you all for few years too, and glad so. tho we have a misunderstanding before, but glad we went past that and have a friendship stronger than before! thanks for all those memories, thanks for the times when both of you are willing to listen individually, thanks for being such great fun and thanks for inspiring me in your running! esp farrell i can see that you have improved so much and being such a determined runner! lead ur vj team well. (: and ronghua thanks for all the songs you sent! haha. love them. and thanks for giving me alot of advice too as well as encouraging me in my running and in other stuffs. all the best in your running!

CLASS:
thanks for the lovely memories for this year! haha for all the class outings, and willing to cooperate with me even tho i think im quite a lousy class rep! shall thank a few to cut time short. haha.

anqing:
thanks for ever being so nice! you are one great girl and thanks for the some sort of heart-to-heart talk to at the iceskating rink. thanks for the advices and thanks for always willing to help in many things, in my studies in everything. thanks for always laughing at my jokes even when they are not funny. may god bless you and stay beautiful!

belinda:
thanks for the xmas card! its really sweet. thanks for being such fun and always accompany me as the only few class girls for the class outings and also thanks for playing gb with us too! and thanks for listening to some of my moans and stuffs and stay happy! (:

rae:
haha ure so nice its hard to imagine if you will ever get angry. thanks for always willing to listen to my crap and nonsense and laughing when they aint funny! haha. and thanks for always being so sweet and so nice! just like a sister always taking care of us. may He bless you with a great year ahead!

angierhan:
hello my another angie! haha thanks for being such great fun in the class too, and always standing up to the teacher for us! lol. thanks for being so unique too, and thanks for always being there for me whenever i need you to. may God bless you too! (:

kennethloo:
hey, thanks for everything. for constantly encouraging me in my running and studies, always helping me in maths and chem, and thanks for accompanying me after trainings sometimes. thanks for all those mrt rides home, thanks for listening, thanks for all the things. and sorry for always making your canoeist friends matchmaking both of us -_- don care them yea. hahaha. but thanks for being such a great friend and classmate! and oh thanks for the necklace bdae present too! (: may God bless you in your canoeing and your studies, which is also not a problem to you at all!

desmond:
ahah hey my moaning partner! thanks for talking thru the night moaning about our youknowwhat and everything. thanks for lending me a listening ear and often being there whenever i have something sad/happy to talk about. thanks for all your jokes! thanks for being such a great friend. may God bless you in your studies, your jumps and in youknowhat!

txa:
thanks for always willing to listen! for everything. thanks so much for helping me in everything, for playing gb too whenever i need someone to play gb with. and thanks for always sending me songs and im very touched for that cd of like so many songs you burned for me. thanks for the wallet bdae present too! thanks again for everything esp your jokes which are really quite lame lol. thanks for everything! may God bless you in your studies, swimming and esp your relationship with your family members (:

brent:
hello! thanks for alot of things, i appreciate them alot even tho you think i dont. thanks for being ever so nice to me, esp in de first few months, thanks for being such a great friend, and for not complaining or whatever each time i suanned you or something. okay fine i shall admit that i really don think you are a gay for the whole year, [even tho for a period of time i really did], so yea those gay stuffs are just joking! don take it to heart. (: thanks for playing gb and always being such a gentleman [in gb-.-] and yea thanks for bringing so much fun and laughter to our class! may God bless in all that you do and dont keep going out with your seanzhong so much and neglect your kethloo lol.

others
manquan:
hello thanks for going to school with me goingschoolpartner! -.- thanks for being so retarded also, geigao pple early in the morning! haha. thanks for withstanding all my rubbish and thanks for having to withstand angie and i for all the weird things we do, and yea oh no seeyou on the first day of school pleasedontbelateforschoolagainthankyouverymuch.

nicyeo:
hey nic need i say more. thanks for alot of things. like really, thanks for listening to me and always being such a great cousin LOL. okay you and i know what it means. anyway yea thanks for alot of things and treating me haagen daaz icecream and pastamania and accompanying me and all. may God bless you in youknowwhat (:

benny:
uh hey dance partner! thanks for like being there too. sorry lately i keep like daoing you or something. i think im just down. i dunno. but sorry. and thanks for withstanding my crap. like thanks for eating pasta with me! and thanks for being dragged down to the place where u have to withstand stupid enlai's laughter also. thanks for always cheering me up when im down, thanks for being so enthu about the dance, and thanks for being such a great friend! thanks for like withstanding all my losings in gb too. :/ i will never forget that time when i was really down and you came up with like so many jokes to cheer me up, thanks a million. (: may He bless you too in your everything!

aaron:
hey! although we know each other for like a short while, but thanks for being such a great friend and always willing to listen to me, and playing gb together. and alot of things. like helping me in stuffs and never complain! and thanks for withstanding my crap and suanning, and also thanks for inviting me to your church activities! (: love it. may God bless you too and good luck to you and _____! (:

last but not least,
L:
uh hello! i know you read my blog. >< sorry dont blame your friend! he suspected it and i asked him to confirm it. haha. but thanks for bothering to read my blog even tho my entries arent interesting, and to know me better even tho we never talk. sorry bout this year, bout things that we don understand, and thanks for understanding and not hurting me directly. may God bless you in your studies, in your cca, you have been doing well and i look forward to seeing you in making the team next year. (: hopefully 2007 will be a good year for you, and for me, and hopefully we will stop the not-talking thing! lol. all the best to you! ((:

TO EVERYONE,
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU.. TO BE HAPPY. (:

[okay i think i almost died from typing such a long list. zzz.]

2006-12-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :D

k i felt so loved even tho there isnt any presents. lol
cos many of you bothered to smsed and all even tho its just a small tiny sms!
and thanks loong for bothering to call and wish me using your friend's phone
even tho u have no handphone! so touched (:

let us not forget today is the birthday of our great Lord, jesus.
and that He who gives us all, so may today [and everyday]
be your time to give, to spread the love.

i guess i will have a really good sleep tonight
tho i doubt i will have any present beside me when i wake up haha!

have a lovely christmas ahead! (:

2006-12-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

merry christmas eve! :D

really sorry dint prepare any xmas present for anyone [im that broke]
and not sending any xmas card too, hmmm so here are some stuffs i found
and hope you will enjoy them! may all of you have a great and blessed xmas! (:

that is snape. oh poor snape.

i hope you understand the joke.
and better if you look at the top of the tree.

click on the gifts beside the guy in santa suit! (:
and if you find nth happen on your speakers. ((:

nice? hope you like it! :D

anyway
thanks a million belinda! who sent me a super nice xmas card. (:
the poem is super sweet! love it. so touched ((:
thanks again! haha.

my SAT scores are here zzzz, and its quite bad, tho the maths is okay.
shows me how much i need to buck up in my english lol.
wont tell my results here, but if you ask me and if ure nice, i may tell you.

anyway it will be like super fun to go to xmas parties! :/
will be interesting to see mistletoe HAHAHA.

for God loves all. and turns his back on none
good or twisted, ignorant or wise,
christmas is a time for love and fun
a time to give your heart to everyone.

2006-12-23T16:01:00.000+08:00

loong's interpretation of the picture i posted yesterday:

The ring is next to 'Heartland' and not 'Heartless'. In the photograph, Heartland appears above Heartless, showing that in the Heart (if Heartland is interepreted as a residing place in the Heart) there is a place that is above being Heartless.

The wedding ring, a metonymy for Marriage, Holy Matrimony and Union is seen in a different light, but the cliched idea of love is repeated, showing that love is greater than all and that in each person is the ability to love.It also shows that there is a thin line between being Heartless and being in the Heartland. The depth of field in the photograph could represent how in the presence of love, everything else is blur, as seen in the blur foreground as juxtaposed against the sharp and clear midground where the focus of the photograph is.

From the word 'Heartland' onwards, there are the words 'Heartless', 'Heart-rending', 'Heart-searching', 'Heart-throb', 'Heart-to-Heart', 'Heart-warming', just by numbers alone, that shows that the positive quantities of love are more than the negative ones. That can be seen in how only the word 'Heartless' has a negative bearing, compared to the others which can be viewed in positive lights.

the bottom tip of the heart is next to the word 'here', showing the love is always here and there within our reach and since it is the narrow strip, over time, we can literally work our way up to the broad areas (which represent the love increasing) where it becomes clear, like the picture becomes clearer as the heart widens. Working our way up also means that we encounter the positive words, like how in relationships we often see the good in people. But then there comes a point in time where it takes real love to overcome the 'not-so-postive' aspects of people (here represented by 'Heartless') and once we can do that, we achieve love, the essence of it and reach the 'heartland' (here, both literally as in the residing area of the heart and physically as in the word in the photograph) where the heart completes itself.

okay wow. lit pple's thinkin is just different.

2006-12-23T14:11:00.000+08:00

ahahhaha, okay maybe not all boys, some are nice.
like mr xide who is now at egypt. like jie who nvr go for sat's trgs.
like retarded roy not funny. like forever making-me-wait loong.
like ronghua songs-distributer. like my cool cousin nic
like my good frens and some of my classmates!
the rest-> boo.

why the sudden zzzness towards boys lemme tell you why.
was talking to A who is best fren of B and A tells me sth bout B
and it shudn be wrong cos A is B's best fren
but A is not saying sth nice bout B. like hello, best friend? they are weird.
and den like i told A something and A said he would tell his frens despite me saying no.
wow thats so very nice, very very very nice of you.
moral of the story: don trust anyone, esp if thats a boy.

okay that was said in a funny way. but truth is, i was like really down last night.
because i really dunno what is real and what is just an illusion.
but then again i may be lying to myself all along.
afterall, A may be trying to help me to know that
not everyone is as nice as what i made them to be.
or at least, be more realistic and not dream of the impossible.
and den i was down because like its quite mean to like tell pple what pple told you
[and they told you not to disclose it]
even if that was ur close frens! like hello NO. don be an.. idiot.

so sorry to whoever was talking to me last night! kind of dao and giving half-hearted answers.
anyway was trg today and it was good. (: except those parts that really almost made me slip.
esp when my shoes are like wearing off it certainly doesnt help the case.
yea anyway wont have trg on xmas day itself! yay.
unlike the boys who have trg smacked in de middle of the day- 4pm! hahaha lalala.
oh yea thanks melvin for the xmas cards! tho its quite sad you wrote three sentences
in my card and den write like so many more lines
in a junior's one who joined us recently only! thanks ah!
and esp since one of the sentences you wrote was 'heard loong ____' zzzzz.
okay i shall fill in that blank when i accomplish my goal that is to train hard!
and don worry the blank isnt like anything funny so dont you think otherwise.

lunch with audrey loong and weiwen after trg, haha nice chat!
we have got like our favourite topics lolol. okay whatever.

2006-12-22T18:55:00.000+08:00

it can be so simple, but the meaning is made complicated.

now interpret this picture on your own and tell me how you feel. (:

blogger must be operated by a woman, or a grp of women
so fickleminded, first it was the beta blogger thing
den soon it was changed to some other new form of blogger! zz.
anyway im still sticking to the ole form, so faithful. -.-

anyway i want to watch night at the musuem! have been wanting to watch that
and yesterday it was screened already! so yea hope i can catch it before horrible sch starts!
and yes, deathnote two too! (: how can a deathnote fan like me miss it right.

divya is back from china! den cheryl is off to australia today. haha.

and i just received jessie [the kk hospital volunteers' in charge] 's xmas card! so sweet!
and her handwriting is really nice, cursive but legible! (:

anyway random quiz taken from frenster! some qns are anyhowed answered.
depends on which one you believe (:

The Letter A

01 Are you angry?
haha for?

02 What is your age?
seventeen.

03 What annoys you?
annoying things. but im not annoyed usually.

04 Ever been arrested?
for being too funny issit.

The Letter B

05 Do you live in a big house?
nahh.

06 When is your birthday?
april 18th (:

07 Who is your best friend?
quite a few good frens. like cheryl angie bao suii divya michh

The Letter C

08 What's your favorite candy?
gummies :D

09 Who's your crush?
everybody, somebody, nobody.

10 When was the last time you cried?
not sure :/

The Letter D

11 Do you daydream?
hahaha yea.

12 What's your favorite kind of dog?
cute ones lol.

13 What day of the week is it?
fryyyy day.

The Letter E

14 How do you like your eggs?
soft boiled! scrambled! any way i like eggs!

15 Have you ever been in the emergency
room?
nope and i dowan to be

16 What's the easiest thing ever to do?
slacking.

The Letter F

17 Have you ever flown in a hot air
balloon?
i want! but nahh never have.

The Letter G

18 Do you chew bubblegum?
duhh. but i don really like to eat bubblegum.

19 Do you like gummy candies?
see qn 08

The Letter H

20 How are you?
hen hao.

21 What's your height?
-.- im vertically challenged. 156/157 if im not wrong.

22 what color is your hair?
brown. its natural i dint dye it thankyou.

The Letter I

23 What's your favorite ice cream?
cookies and cream. chocolate and cookies. peppermint.

24 Do you play an instrument?
uhh LOL RECORDER.

The Letter J

25 What's your favorite jelly bean?
not so much of a jellybean fan. :/

26 Have you ever heard a really hilarious
joke?
haha duhh. you are one big joke.

27 Do you wear jewelry?
don think so. but i wouldnt mind.

The Letter K

28 Who do you want to kill?
nobody. killing is a sin!

29 Do you want kids?
hahha ask me again maybe like several years later

30 Where did you have kindergarten?
PAP kindgerten :D at toapayoh.

Letter L

31 Are you laid back?
uhhh uhhhhh no idea.

32 Do you lie?
if i can i wont.

The Letter M

33 Whats your favorite movie?
quite a few movies! (:

34 Do you still watch disney movies?
yea (:

35 Do you like mangos?
yea ((:

The Letter N

36 Do you have a nickname?
yea sure one, some im okay with it and some im not. lol.

37 Whats your favorite number?
17! haha.

38 Do you prefer night over day?
hmm yea.

The Letter O

39 What's your one wish?
to have 10 more wishes.

40 Are you an only child?
one sister of 16 yrs old and one bro of 6 yrs old

41 Do you wish this was over?
don worry no.

The Letter P

42 What's one fear are you most paranoid
about?
to die suddenly. :/

The Letter Q

43 Are you quick to judge people?
nope (:

The Letter R

44 Do you think you're always right?
i hope im but i know im not.

45 Do you watch reality tv
haha not really.

46 What's a good reason to cry?
when you are really hurt/touched/happy.

The Letter S

47 Do you prefer sun or rain?
depends.

48 Do you like snow?
yea! sadly sg no snow.

49 What's your favorite season?
autumn.

The Letter T

50 What time is it?
dint bother to check.

51 What time did you wake up?
some time.

52 When was the last time you slept in a
tent?
never did. lol all my camps all no tent. lol.

The Letter U

53 Are you wearing panties/thongs/boxers?
-.-

54 Do you prefer panties or thongs?
-_-

55 Underwear or boxers?
T.T

The Letter V

56 Whats the worst veggie?
peas! issit considered veggie? lol no idea.

57 Where do you want to go on vacation?
paris! united states! canada! new zealand! australia!

58 Where was your last family vacation to?
KL.

The Letter W

59 Where do you live?
singapore, woodlands.

The Letter X

60 Have you ever had an x-ray?
yes.

The Letter Y

61 you like the color yellow?
okay with it.

62 What year were you born in?
1989

The Letter Z

63 Whats your zodiac sign?
snake ssssss.

64 Do you believe in the zodiac?
nah

65 What's your favorite zoo animal?
no favs.

2006-12-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

hello hello! (: haha tiring day today.
trg in de morning at rj. and ohman i dint know 7eleven is gg to launch in rj!
wow cool! im so happy can. can buy alot of sweets.
im gg to be their regular customer man.
and its situated just right beside our ATM machine! i wonder.
the grass was real muddy today and by the time we finished our schedule
im like, brown. okay maybe not that bad but still.
had to do abit of washing up before returning home

den went to aaron's church musical in de aftn! yea at pasir ris.
and i tot i took de wrong bus zzzz and i tot i was late.
turned out i was one of the earlier ones. wow.
anyway it was great, the musical was short tho.
but the songs were nice! and touching too.
oh and the pastor's speech was very inspiring too.
makes me reflect on how bad a christian ive been. z i suck.
i think this year im like.. not building a good relationship with Him.
like neh read bible as often and always make promises and breaking them :/
but! its never too late to know God. (: so help me with it yea.
need alot of help in fact. haha.
anyway lois was really nice today! accompanying me and all. (:
thanks huiting too! for brging me ard and all.

there was like some dinner session after that which was bit of chatting up
haha quite nice. and den there was some discussion thing too. hmm.
then abigail walked me to the mrt station! thanks! (:
haha keep thanking so many pple. but shall thank aaron the most for inviting. (:
he is sending me some christian songs now! super nice. haha

s1M4J!

2006-12-19T20:56:00.000+08:00

391.

i read the lyrics of this song and i teared.
and ive never teared for like.. so long.

have you ever.

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad you cant sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they dont come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever
(Have you ever)

Have you ever been in love, been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you dont know what to say and you dont know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad you cant sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they dont come out right
Have you ever (Have you ever)
Have you ever

Ooooh
Have you ever found the one you've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much (so much) it makes you cry
(Makes you wanna break down and cry)
Have you ever needed something so bad(so, so bad) you cant sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they dont come out right
(Have you ever)
Have you ever
Have you ever
(Have you ever ever ever)

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world cuz baby I can't sleep

Have you ever loved somebody so much (so much) it makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad you cant sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they dont come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever...

Loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad you cant sleep at night
(Just cant sleep at night)
Have you ever tried to find the words but they dont come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever
(Have you ever ever ever)
Ooooo
Have you ever

2006-12-19T14:22:00.000+08:00

ehh i dint know radioblogclub has korean songs!
ehh ehh cool this song was one of the goong songs
and i used it as my blog song before. now you can listen to it again.

it kept raining these days. like. non-stop.
which gets annoying after awhile cos it traps you in your house
and you just don feel like going out
hahaha my coach will love it man. so that we can stay at home and studyyy.

anyway N level results was yesterday! actually not much of my concern
but then my sister was getting her results yesterday.
oh and she was promoted! to sec five. (:
well she better be. if not she will get ggxxed by my parents.
but ohwels she still wasnt at all happy cos like she dint get some outstanding award shit.
sth like getting four 1/2s. she only got three 2s. and like she also lost to some of her good frens
so she was all =( =( =( =( =( when she got home LOL.
aye its okay! next year O levels den trash everyone kay
lol shit i made it sound so easy
but their sch last year top Olevel scorer only 9 points. nehnehsai.

oh and i lent benny this dance movie. innocent steps.
the dance moves were nice! natural and graceful.
sometimes those pro their moves abit too unnatural.
anyway this is a clip of the movie.

i like this alot! really cool steps.

and this is another one in which she competes with another guy
[watch the show to find out why, i can lend you de vcd]
which, is rumba! nice right. (:

i don care i want to self-learn all these steps lol.

and i was looking for this rumba song, Asi by Gizelle D'Cole
very beau-ti-ful song! help me find kay. (:

and school is starting. in case you havent noticed.
ohyea, by the way this is the 390th post of this blog! amazing aint it.
maybe i shall blog until 400th post and den close this blog down teeheehee.

2006-12-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

i shud have known today isnt that much of my lucky day.

rain started once i stepped out of my house
and stopped once i got to the train station.
so i was kinda late for dance.
thankfully uncle felix was caught in de rain too.
anyway den i was asked to help out in dis interview thing
he said he would be interviewd and den he need some dancers to fill de dance floor

okay everything wasnt bad, really.
went to bugis street first to find bags, but cant find any dat i fancy much
and i saw boon, keth and shenglin dere too shopping for bags
den went back to studio where we were brought to a dance bar
high class, i must say, no wonder rich ladies love going there to dance.
my first time there and i love the place.
but but but.

so then the tv crew came and we de dancers were like dancing in de backgrd [for show]
den the tv host aka enlai was supp to learn abit of dancing from uncle felix
anyway the point is to introduce the place for de show i guess
so yea den this enlai guy was supp to dance with rachel abit
once camera is on i try ALL WAYS to hide.
like hiding behind my dance partner and all. really! i hate to be on tv
but never did i know this @#$%^&*() zzzzzzzz abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
dearest darling lovely handsomezzzz enlai abandoned rachel halfway
and JUMPED right in front of me screaming
'i want to learn de side steps you are doing!'
den PUSHED my dance partner away and danced with me.
i tell you my face was in such a horrible state of shock that
it can win de shock of the year. yes its dat bad.
and so i was still like shocked and all he did was like pulling me and all
den i was frantically trying to find uncle felix [to get me out of this]
but once i turned my head i was directly face to face with de stupid camera
and i am like so GGXX GGXX GGXX GGXX GGXX GGXX GGXX.

kill me now kill me now kill me now.
i hate enlai, why must you tramatise me?
esp since his laughter was like dinosauraous. really.
i will have nightmare tonight. and no PLS DO NOT WATCH TV FOR THE NEXT MONTH.
if you happen to see someone who looks like me, no thats not me
you are just hallucinating, trust me.

and shinbin damn smart, puposely come after everything's over. wahlau!
we danced awhile at de bar, damn cool de music is sexayyz.
and i learnt abit of salsa from the bar owner! haha he taught me some steps!
damn cool lar omg can i have the place. and shinbin danced really nice! (:

good thing for today tho! and that is i got a new school bag and pencilbox!
damn nice i love de pencilbox. you shall see it next year
the school bag is not bad, tho i think probably many of you
would still prefer the orange one [since you all said its nice]
but at least this time i wont be recognised EVERYWHERE.
may this be my consolation for today's trama.

i don like enlaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiidiot.

2006-12-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

hello i think i need to lose weight, like seriously. =(

2006-12-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

cedarcrosscountry team

old video of mine
i miss de team! i miss suihui baoyue szemin audrey samantha tasha tricia priscilla pamella dharshini serene and all the rest in de team of yesterday and today
please meet up soon our monthly outing thing is gone so wheres our annual one

2006-12-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

heyhey sth cool i found out! :D
if you wanna buy a good sports shoe/running shoes
you need to see if ure a pronator/under pronator
cos diff shoes are designed for diff types
haha and how do u find out if ure pronator or under pronator?
use the wet feet test!

http://www.runnersworld.ltd.uk/foottype.htm

you can use a dark coloured paper or cardboard like what i did
den yea find out if ure flat feet or normal feet or high arched feet!
haha a pronator would be flat feet
while under pronator would be high arched feet.
more info its in de website u can read up (:

so cool haha i went to try and i got normal feet! :D
yay thats good. no injury prone or anything. lol.

and so i was choosing shoes to order
[its dat time of the yr again to order shoes at discounted prices]
was liking two types of shoes but after the wet feet test im down to one (:
so what i need now is my shoe size, which i forgot LOL.

so tada this shoe! nice right, matches my orange bag zzzz.
which i really want to change, everyone can recognise me from afar!
i want a new school bag! hello santa claus are you reading this.

2006-12-12T10:59:00.000+08:00

pictures pictures! :D

okay actually all those pictures were kind of a long ago thing.
was looking thru my files.
and saw our class photo before the farewell of some first-intakers
everyone looked so good! okay not everyone but most.
except for glen- his hair now is so much better, haha way better.
den some others [like me] look more horrible now -.-
[click on pictures to enlarge]

i missed the first intakers! :/ they are so fun.
can we have both the 1st intakers and 2nd intakers please.
we don mind a bigger class, definitely.

[most of the] class girls at the chalet

us at the airport! :D

sorry if the pictures seem low quality, ive no photoshop with me! :/
[it went down to the drain together with the brushes downloaded when my laptop crashed dat fateful morning when i was bout to print my pw written report.]
but im gg to borrow from cheryl soon so yea (:

anyway yesterdays trg at turf city, i tell u de weather was so nice
i think the temperature was like 39 degree celcius
fabulous. wonderful. err. but it was great i felt myself pushing

and mrtay gave me a project to do. hmm
to organise a mini crosscountry for inter-cca thing.
ah hah i need help! needa draft out proposal and all
help greatly appreciated.

ohyes and there was a video i dint post up here haha kept forgetting
i posted it in class blog tho. anyway so heres de vid!
its just a stupid video of us getting crazy [or rather me only =.=]
during the class chalet bout a month ago. so yea
i realised in mozilla firefox you cant click on de spot to view
so click on the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_gaJK79ZSQ
okay don luff at me byebye

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

2006-12-10T20:25:00.000+08:00

todays such a beary nice day!
it was the canadian teddy bear drive at kkh.
over a thousand of bears were donated by the canadian organisation for the kids
i swear i have never seen so many teddy bears of various sizes and variety before
it makes you go.. aww.
there were like winnie pooh bears!
there were also ty bears which i still have no idea why they are so expensive
like so small, unhuggable and so not adorable. lol.
thank god the ty bears aint given out to the kids. the biggers bears were.
and i got a favourite bear! its like de only one there =(
its looks abit like tatti bear except its in pink, haha i took a pic of it using my hp
some kid got it in de end. ouch.

anyway! so like i was actually in charge of bringing a grp of ADULTS
to like give out bears. which includes some of the canadians.
darn i totally felt like a girl trapped in a woman's body
or whatever you call that.
what i was doing is like so businesswoman like,
cos uhh i was suddenly talking to those kind of big pple
at first there was like a mess and the overall in charge wasnt there
then this man he seemed kind of agitated and he demanded me to explain the stuffs
tried to keep my cool and explained? haha i really felt like screamin and ran off
this is so out of life experience. or rather my life experience.
but all in all it was a success! (:
and you know what, there was this kind of lucky draw thing
except u need to donate 1 buck for an entry
big prize was a super big bear together with some mini prizes- smaller bears
went out to distribute the bears and by the time i returned the draw was halfway thru
and guess what! i won a mini prize! lol. some black bear.
gave my bro the bear! and he names it wad, jiayi. wth im sure, dats a female name pls.

oh and there was this canadian guy that was really hot! ahhhh ahhhh. -.-

anyway got to sleep early tonight esp since tmr's trg at turf city
and i dunno how to get there! i mean there was a shuttlebus service
but it started at like 10. so yea i need to figure out the best way there.
hello turf city! nice to see you again.

I hear myself complain so I can do it again
Do it again
I give myself the blame so I get back up again
Get out of the rain

word of the day:
histrionic- excessively dramatic
she's so histrionic i think she should win the grammy awards man.

2006-12-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

i feel like sitting down in a theatre munching nachos cheese
and watch a nice movie! someone organise movie outing please!

ohh yar. im broke.

2006-12-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

totally in the mood for love, sugar and honey.

alright divya i swear right now ure de luckiest girl on earth :DDDD
someone give a tiara to this girl please! she's going to dance with it.

more at xanga!

todays maths consultation with divya and loong was great.
freaking 4 hours. i was kind of dying at the last part.
but learnt alot! and divya and loong are freaking muggers. lol

rest of today at xanga! (:
but im definitely a happy girl today! tralala :)

ohyea and sorry to the class peeps for not joining the seoulgarden lunch/dinner!
was kind of tired already so yea. but thanks for asking! (:
especially brent and zhong, but sorry for missing your calls!

ohyea roy is leaving for aust tmr! everyone lets celebrate.
okay fine i shall say that im so sad that my lungs are breaking [how sarcarstic]
hmms enjoy urself alright! and boohoo yes im going to miss ur retardedness
so you better come back soon! and yes divya u too!
who is going to china to speak chinese babbyyy
i prepared a chinese trans book for her! self made kay
but she kept luffing at my translations hmms hmms -.-
neh mind as much as im being stranded alone here in sg
i would still entertain myself until you two come back and fill me in with de details!

ohh and today is my sis's first day of work today!
some packaging thing. 50 bucks a day. mad.
shes gettin richer each day and im gettin poorer and poorer
wahlau increasing income gap. i want complain to goverment

word of the day:
solicitous- anxious about someone's welfare
im going to be solicitous bout divya[in case she gets too crazy there] when she goes off to china for holiday.

2006-12-07T18:19:00.000+08:00

and perhaps im hiding from you;

sweet sixteen jaaan! :D
hope to seeyou in rj next year ((:

im in love with this song now (:
thank god for whoever who sent it to me!
it was in my comp and i was shuffling songs last night.
since the song is nice, i shall send it to someone nice too! (:
be honoured be very honoured.

coach gave divya and i a book each he wrote few yrs ago
'how to excel in sports and studies' :D
im so touched! im gg to gear up for the challenge.

going to rjc tmr with divya and loong for some maths consultation.
9am. my brain will be half sleeping then.

set up personal blog at xanga. http://xanga.com/caijingg
password for selected few! you can ask tho.

Hey, show some love, you aint so tough
Come fill my little world right up, right up
Someday you're going to realise
(I want you)
To fill my little world right up, right up, right up

Maybe it's all too much
How come we're so messed up
Maybe I'm not enough
Maybe you're just too much

2006-12-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

no mascot, but many balloons!
in fact it was 154 balloons given away.
we blew up these number of balloons with the pump
and tied dem to the sticks. two-men work.
now call me fantastic.

and i would never forget this adorable boy
who wants to have many balloons so he could fly.
so i gave him one more balloon.
many kids faces were lighten up today! totally.

and nothing could beat pastamania dinner
chicken bolog with cream mushroom soup
topped with garlic bread and mango soda!
taste like heaven.

word of the day:
inscrutable- mysterious, enigmatic
i think its inscrutable that my results can ever be so bad, i mean, im so smart please!

2006-12-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

[edited]
http://innoc3nence.signmyguestbook.com/
my old gbk. it kind of work again.
you can view the old gbk entries. quite interesting.

by the way cheryl's away at her church camp
while angie is off at india with vic, so they are both dearly missed!
sent angie off today with qi, yun and aaron.
nice one aaron kana mistaken as angie's boyfriend by angie's mum, HAHA.
no one minds that anyway.
so then it was crapping with qi and yun at MaCs!

entertainment prog tmr again, den dance.
ohyea sara i wonder if you hav sent in de app form already?
hope so! then we two can rock the hospital man.
and yea i wonder whats for tmr? mascot again?

anqing and yuzhuo are going for taiwan tmr!
take care yea (:

and since im bored and nobody's gbing with me
i shall do surveys.
1.Ever been given a ring?
yea. someone gave it to me in pri sch. interesting.

2. Longest relationship?
never been in one.

3. Last gift you received?
lip gloss from cheryl.

4. How many times have you dropped your cell?
millions.

5. Last sport you played?
run?

6. Things you spend a lot of money on?
food :D

7. Thing you ate last?
err. MaCs. -.-

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes.

9. A song which desribes your feelings now?
cant think of any.

10. Where do you live?
woodlands.

11. Last relationship?
shuddup about it, i don have.

12. Cell phone service provider?
Starhub i think. or was it singtel? cant be bothered.

13. Favorite mall store?
famous amos cookies? haha.

14. Longest job held?
never had a job. im lazy.

15. Do you own a pair of dice?
game boards have.

16. Do you prank call people?
nope.

17. Last person who text messaged you?
emily- about her new change in number. haha.

18. First friend you'd call if you won a lottery?
cheryl. to make her jealous.

19. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Long John Silver! and Mos burger! shitt im hungry.

20. Last incoming call?
my sis.

21. Last time you got drunk?
never drunk.

22. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends?
anywhere cheap and nice to eat?

23. Can you cook?
no way. i suck at it.

24. What car do you want to buy?
no money.

25. Last time u cried?
no idea.

26. Most hated food?
whatever that makes me puke at first sight

27. Last time you had an argument?
no idea.

28. Thing you like most about yourself?
being a girl.

29. Things you hate most about yourself?
everything else.

31. Favorite Movie?
alot.

32. Name all the races of the people that you've
been with?
huh.

33. Last movie rented?
forgot.

34. Favorite alcoholic drinks?
i don like alcholic drinks.

35. Favorite perfume?
whatever that smells nice.

36. What are you thinking at the moment?
doing this survey.
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What is the best nickname that u ever had?
ceejay/cj. sounds nice!

Do you think suicide is the best way?
no.

Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10?
dunno. 6?

Are you in love with someone at the moment?
im in love with God. (: okay and everybody i know.

Are you missing someone at the moment?
angie and cheryl!

Would you die for the one you love?
probably, but i know the ones i love will not want me to die, aint it so?

Do you think love hurts?
obviously.

Whats the best thing about love?
loving someone and being loved back.

Whats the worst thing about love?
not being loved back.

Will you wait for someone you love?
if that special someone wants me to, i will.

What song that best describes your love life at the moment?
in another time.

Do you wanna get married?
you have to meet the right person first.

Have you talked to the person you love in the last 24 hours?
obviously, i talk to so many of my loved ones!

Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
keep those that are worthy to keep.

Is love always on your side or the opposite way?
love is at every corner. but im walking in circles.

Do you have a gay/lesbian/bisexual friend?
yea.

Are you sick of love?
never.

Are you sick of questions on love?
yes. so stop it already.

What do u want so badly right now?
money.

Do you think money is everything?
lol. unfortunately/fortunately no.

What's the song that you last downloaded?
fergalicious.

How much do you love music?
alot. more than i love you man, lol.

Do you play an instrument?
not really.

Have you writen your own song?
haha tried but failed miserably.

What song is in your mind right now?
fergalicious.

word of the day:
corpulent- fat or plump
they called her corpulent, and she was so happy because she thought it was a compliment.

2006-12-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

apart from being abit too sleezy,
great music. great moves.

2006-12-05T03:08:00.000+08:00

omg my coach was talkin to me after trg yest so nicely
den divya and i like dunno what to say so reply quite -_- den he just walked away
and it was his birthday yesterday. omg i felt so bad.
i simply suck okay. why the hell does such kind of mean person exist on earth.

can i cry.

2006-12-05T02:16:00.000+08:00

if i can have just one and only one christmas wish,
i would want to turn time back, to exactly a year ago.

2006-12-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

and kiss her poison lips if you may;

due to popular demand, theres gna be follow-up for my vocab in one of the previous entries.
that is, word of the day, follow by a sentence constructed! yay.
actually, only divya requested it. but since shes popular,
divya = popular, so divya demand = popular demand. there.

trg in de morning was so quiet. weird but i prefer less people anyway.
den i did quite badly in my trg [whats unusual] and yea.
but i saw the cedar xcty pple! haha so cute.
they ran from bishan stadium to macritchie. den ran back again
so they ran past rjc too. lol did anyone of u see dem?
i did. cos i was on de bus with divya on de way home den we past dem
haha! feel like getting my head out of the window and screamed at dem
but. it. was. an. air. con. bus.

hmm oh yea and saw some rj pple trg too! haha saw so much from a bus ride.
lol divya said i was damn excited. HAHAH. whatever.
anyway den we went to eat kaya toast where i ate soft boiled eggs!
i love soft boiled eggs. but i poured too much black soy sauce -.-
nvm maybe like that i will be more tanned.

oh and i need money. alot.

sorry that pic was random but i reckon my blog is quite pictureless
which means the whole blog is very un-interesting i dunno why u all still come my blog anyway
but don worry when i get a cam [after i settle all my 12345 debts]
i will take lots of pictures of myself until ure sick of my face kay

word of the day:
pristine- clean, new and unused
this sanitary pad is pristine, there you can use it.

2006-12-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

welcome back to sg angierhan and keth! (:

and yay im a stone hammer alr! now i can go free zone and play with classmates
and also meet all the pro pple. like woah gotta get pwned like mad.
anyway aaron raywen also become stone hammer, yay! haha
was playing with dem last night and today.
quite fun we won most of the games! not my credit obviously -.-

anyway i was pwned like crazy in SATs. like whatttt the.
the time allocated for each section was too short.
i was like rushing thru the questions without having much chance to think twice.
i cant bear to see my results. =.=
oh and there were quite a few rafflesians there too!
lol i saw johnathan mak and he looked very amused at my presence.
and cheryl and i saw the chemistry guy and we cudnt stop luffin -.-

err, so yea dance! which was supp to be at 4 but i was late adhdfhf
because when i reached my train station only to find out that
the train service was disrupted just cos someone jumped onto the tracks and died.
jump also don jump the other side. kidding.
anyway yea so i was late and so the time slot is taken.
what to do, its private lesson = any time can cancel etc.
anyway so yea sorry benny for making you wait -.-
but anyway so we watched johnathan and his partner danced. which was so nice!
ahhhh when will we ever become like that.
anyway first time dancing with someone u know is quite weird lol!
but i was okay during befrienders dance leh. no idea why.
but anyway after awhile it was okay ler! and benny stop scolding me in gb
if not i'll step on ur toes with my high heels each time u scold me ahahhaha.
den later it was de last rumba class and so at the end of the day my toes hurt like mad. -.-
anyway benny just suanned me indirectly in gb! fine he is so dead on tuesday.
which is also the day angie is leaving for india! gosh. hope she will have a fun trip!

k trg tmr! and only girls trg woohoooo.

and i feel like cutting my hair short.
like shorter than shoulder length.

2006-11-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

happy birthday desmond!
happy birthday manel!

difference between bishan libarian and woodlands libarian:
when asked a bishan libarian in the 3rd floor toilet after she brushed her teeth
[dun ask me why she was brushing her teeth, i have no idea either]
about the location of an english dictionary
she muttered '2nd storey'
went to 2nd storey asked another libarian [after searching]
and was told it was at the 3rd storey! -.-
but when asked a woodlands libarian she told me '423'
OMG SIAO she can rmb the EXACT location.

now you know where to go and study.

lol. okay was at the 2 libaries today. studyin SAT.
which im taking this saturday. [no pun intended]
yea im so good game right, only started studying now.
and don ask me why i take SAT. i have no idea.
just one bright morning cheryl told me she takin SAT den asked if i want to reg
den i okay lor den go register. ggxx.
and its gonna be at ngee ann sec at some dunno what ulu tampines place!
oh no can someone pls tell me the directions!! -.-
cheryl's dad fetching her so obviously she doesnt need to know!
okay just tell me on msn/gbk. its okay if u dowan to leave ur name, i just need to know the directions! hhahaha thanks a million zillion william. lol

by the way im quite ggxx. who ask me to be so last minute.
so many vocab words to learn/master. and its not like they will come out.
english is like how.. vast. one word can have so many meanings
and one meaning can have so many words. -.-
anyway since i learnt some vocab today so present to u all!
and to rmb it better i shall construct my own sentences with them! tada.

vocab!
flippant- frivoulous and disrepsectful
i wish i could be flippant towards the teachers but i couldnt, if not i would get kicked out by the school.
mediocre- not very high quality, average or 2nd rate
why that person buy porn vcds also dunno how to choose, buy mediocre ones!
inhibit- repress, hold back
roy cant seem to inhibit his retardedness, how sad.
penitent- sorry for having done wrong and willing to atone
after murdering someone, he is penitent and decides to kill himself.
supercillious- disdainful or contemptuous; haughty
that supercillious princess always looks down on people, no wonder people likes to throw darts at her picture.
debilitate- to make weak
i shall upgrade my gb skills and then debilitate the rest.
prosaic- commonplace, dull
your jokes are all so prosaic my toes are laughing.
artful- skillful; clever/ cunning; crafty
she enjoys being artful because it makes her feels damn smart and the rest damn stupid.

we all learn something new everyday! (:

2006-11-29T20:18:00.000+08:00

my heart is broken like so many times today.
and at the same time [literally] its lighten up many times too

went to kkh today for volunteers briefing.
or actually, volunteer's briefing. there was only me. lol
think they have quite few voulnteers i guess.
anyway just some briefing like what to do and all
oh there may be a lesson on balloon sculpturing, cool!
den haha i can show some skill or two to all of you. lmao
also like probably a lesson to handle sick children too

anyway so today theres another volunteer [who came later], vanessa
shes 2 yrs older den im. anyway i think im the youngest volunteer for ward entertainment prog
thats cos the prerequisite was 18 yrs old but i managed to get in!
tee hee hee.
today we have a mascot! pink dinosaur. looked like barney.
anyway it was the first time having a dinosaur [they said] so they were kind of afraid that
the kids might be afraid. like crying and all.
err well in de end there were a few does.
haha but they very funny, like the dinosaur came towards dem they cried
den when asked to bid farewell, they 'byebye' to de dinosaur. LOL!
okay maybe u don find it funny but if u were dere u would.

anyway beneath the mascot was a lady of like 30 yr old plus?
haha she very spontaneous. and walking ard wards after wards
she was sweating like mad but she insisted on carrying on and all
we escorted her around and distributed stickers!
haha got hellokitty, pooh, cinderella, bobthebuilder etc stickers

the kids were like all from like few mths old all the way to like 13/14 yrs old.
mostly are like 3,4,5 yrs old. i rmbed one boy who was lying on his bed faced down
i bent down and 'hello!' and gave him a sticker.
he super adorable! but he was like dowan to talk to anyone that kind.
he took the sticker and looked at it, den it kinda fell off to the ground.
i picked it up and gave him again, den he kind of threw some tandrum and threw it off
haha so cute.

deres this toddler who was super super super adorable lar
his grandma was holding him and he was super delighted to see the dinosaur.
shaked hands and all. den he kept smiling and my heart just melted.
but den his face was super red, cos his grandma said it was some allergy
as in his eyes were like puffy, den his lips was swollen. =(
but nothing beat what i saw. this baby that was in a container.
many tubes, my heart just broke when i saw that.
and i couldnt do anything to help. except exchanged a few smiles with de family of the child.
there was one girl whom i visited too, and i could see her mum's eyes were swollen from crying.
shit i felt like crying for all of dem, but no obviously i cudnt.
i must smile and spread the joy to dem! hahaa retarded.

we visited so many wards and so many kids! so we only spent little time in each ward
but there were some that left deep impressions on me.
especially the parents. because i know that when a child falls sick
nothing hurts more than the parents.
there were some parents who brought some vcd player
so some of the kids were like watching cartoons as we came in
super adorable.
then there was this boy that kept crying non stop and all
and i so stupid gave him hellokitty stickers 0.0
shit but that was before i tot he was a boy okay.
den again he was too busy crying he dint notice de stickers.
some of the kids took pictures with the dinosaur! haha.
then there were also some kids we cant exactly visit
cos they were all in the 'isolation rooms'
so we just slide in the stickers into the room and waved at some kids

if i had a cam i would have like take pics of the adorable pics too
but i got no camera. boohoohoo. care to get me one

all in all, the wards all so diff! got subsidised ones, got B class A class luxury ones!
the luxury ones are mad. like totally. room so big got sofa everything.
better den hotel. but choi! no one wants to stay in hospital lar pls!

k this entry very boring right, all about kids.
but i look forward to the day i can like tell stories to the kids!
like you know act them out sometimes and all, eg the tiger and the fish story!

err sorry no such story, i anyhow invent one.

2006-11-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

blog song: In another time

you and i were never meant to be together
and now its time for me to go
but deep in my heart
you will always stay
forever in another place, in another time

so walk with me and let me hold you close
and we will share this last memory
and dream about our love and what it means
to love someone enough to set them free

in another place, in another time
in the space between any reason or rhyme
someday we'll have it all and our love will shine
in another place, in another time
you will always be the one on my mind
in another place, in another time
in another place, in another time

and so this time i'll let you go
then perhaps, perhaps
we will both fall in love
in another place, in another time.

2006-11-28T21:15:00.000+08:00

"I tell our runners to divide the race into thirds. Run the first part with your head, the middle part with your personality, and the last part with your heart."
- Mike Fanelli, club coach
that was from my captain's email to us. haha.
haha hey all thanks for all the encouragement! on msn/gbk etc.
thanks a million! really help me alot. felt so touched =)
i will find that old me back! tho yest's trg screwed up again -.-
at pandan reservoir. weather really cold. rained abit.
but thats not an excuse for a lousy performance.
nevermind, failure bornes success!
and rome isnt built in a day [its built in de night]
so yea! fighting!

anyway last night was a fun time gbing again! haha been long since.
gb with roy and his sister + outsiders. i think roy's sis is mad.
shes a frigging pro. okay maybe not that pro but shes good. lol
and roy's like improving by heaps too, shit i shall make this small if not he sees this.
anyway fun! im only few more thousands gold away to get that nice clothing etc! lmao.
note the sarcarsm.

and i found a dance partner! whee. actually its just the first and only person i asked.
lol. cos he was keen before. so yea asked him. tot he would make a good dance partner too.
anyway its none other than benny from breakdance and tabletennis! haha.
he is quite serious bout it, checking the studio and all, which is good! (:
so yea we are gg to start this saturday i guess! haha whee hope it will be fun.
we are gg to learn chacha and den take the exam syllabus together hmms.

okay im quite excited for tmr! the real volunteer thing.
this time i doubled check alr. yes its tmr no mistake. im not gg to be stupid twice lol.

and haha samuel made me so happy lol! cos he was taking bout OGL thing
den he said:
sam says:
i think you'd make a good OGL
caijingg fate fell short this time; says:
hahah how come!
sam says:
you're friendly...open and extroverted..quite bubbly
sam says:
and u like to dance
sam says:
perfect OGL material!

actually u noe the real purpose of me pasting here is trying to haolian lar. what else. LOL.

k more gb later! byebye.

2006-11-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

trg was screwed up yesterday and i tot of alot of things on the bus way home
memories of the past kept flashing back so i got emo-ed.
warning this entry is kind of personal and stuffs so be prepared ure seeing another side of me
okay just kidding. but err usually i don really show my emotions to people
even when im really angry i would just walk out of the place
i know some guys in my class told me that im de last person/girl they least expected to cry
always laughing like as if theres nothing bothering me

but this year i have been really, being so loserish that i am even looking down at myself.
where was the me that was ever passionate about running
ever so motivated to do even better and doing more to improve
i need to find my passion and motivation back this is my last year to prove
so i searched through my personal diaries [which i no longer write in]
found some entries of my more successful races
shall type one out and find that passion back in me

[some parts have been edited/deleted to protect some sort of privacy]
20 March 2005 sunday
SPH relays 4 x 800m

oh my gosh oh my gosh im so so so so so so happy! today we have press foundation relays- all the secondary schools sent relays teams to compete, its like a combined school thing, so yea. was down for 4 x 800m relay with suihui dharshini and divya. trained a few weeks on that especially on speed work, like doing 300m, 400m, 500m and all. baton passing too. but it was all worth the effort!

warmed up with the team at ard the grass area and was wearing our number tags. dharshini was writing our names on the list and i was like joking ard to make the atmosphere better. but inside i was kind of scared stiff, tho excited nonetheless. thats what i like about relays, because teamwork is so much better than running individually. then again it would mean a different responsibility. anyway we were warming up and st nicks team were like near us and uhhh they were our strongest opponents. they kept staring at us so uhh we stared back lor. divya said sth funny lol (removed.) anyway went to report. i was the first runner! oh no. damn scary cos it means im running with all the rest = on par. divya would be the second runner, dharshini the third and suihui would be the last runner. ahyes sports school is another very strong competitor too, and they were running too. anyway the first runner of st nicks was ____ (removed.) who runs really well so i was kind of afraid of her. anyway before the start of the race divya overheard the ____ (insert vulgarities) girl [last runner of st nicks] telling the team to 'beat cedar'. zzzz boliao.

race was going to start. first runners needed to line up in lanes and we were lane 5. some of the juniors were cheering 'go cedar go caijing!' and i was just like chuckling [i dunno why] took the baton and tried to relax abit. jumped abit. strided abit. ____ was beside me. then the race started! followed de st nicks girl closely behind with the sports school girl leading far in front. samantha tasha bao they all were at the 200m to 300m grandstand there cheering, felt more motivated and overtook the st nicks girl after 200m. now i was behind the sports school girl, but still quite a distance to catch up. maintained my pace and not letting the gap to widen we finished the first lap, going to the last lap. mrtay said the most crucial part of 800m would be the last 300m as everyone would whack and the positions would count on this.

but i never felt better than before. with more cheerings from bao tasha they all, i quickened my pace, gap reduced. i could hear the sports school coach yelling some dunno what language at the sports school girl in front of me. last 200m. caught up with her as we two were like really fighting. the cheers got louder and louder as we two fought in the last 100m. dunno why but there was this strong passion in me. to overtake. to whack her. i saw divya 80m away hopping to get my baton. this was it. i whacked harder, and this time she seemed unable to maintain the same pace. and then at the last 70/60m i overtook her. more cheers! [see how much they hated sports school] den i continued to ran and reach divya. divya took the baton and ran with the 2nd sports school girl trying to follow closely behind. the 2nd st nicks girl was really good and caught up with them. meanwhile, i went to the sides and stretched abit, omg alot of latic acid on my legs.

divya ran well too, continued the lead and reached dharshini. but the gap was not big enough. and this time we saw how powerful dharshini was. she sprinted the entire 800m and the gap was really amazing. by the time suihui started running the 2nd runner [which is the sports school last runner] was lagging 200m behind. clear that we were sweeping the gold home. haha! was cheering like mad. then mrtay came beside me and told me good run and said 'i think your team may break the record.' omg that is madness! break record! so divya and i screamed louder! suihui got to win this for us. and of cos despite not having any threat, she finished the race beautifully.

omg! she came back to us and mrtay told us we broke the record by like NINE seconds! crazy crazy crazy! sports school was 2nd and stnicks third. anyway when we heard that we broke the record we were like jumping and jumping and hugging each other! nothing could describe how happy we were. imagine us beaming and taking the gold medals standing on the podium [is that the right word] and them annoucing us breaking the record of 20+ years. what an honour! and guess what! because of this broken record cedar won the overall champion for the b division!
okay im like so happy! the medal also so pretty so shiny haha okay im mad.

but what am i now. no motivation no passion whole day slacked my trgs away.
i want to have that old me back.
i used to be able to do 15 x 400ms without dying
i used to be excited for trgs
i used to prepare myself before competitions
i used to write reflections after every trgs
i used to monitor my progess with the timings
i used to be strict with my sleeping times and eating
i used to fight on and not giving up easily
i used to train more to improve
i used to be able to do 9 mins plus for 2.4km
i used to be angry at myself when i did a bad performance
i used to have pple from other schs warning teammates 'beware of caijing'
i used to have the entire cedar cheering for me when i ran
i used to race in hottest sun, heaviest rain and still kept running
i used to fall and step on at the start of the race and continued running with blood dripping down my legs
i used to continue training despite feeling abit unwell or injured.
i used to be defeated and get up and try again
i used to feel uneasy when i din run each day
i used to have my junior telling me how much i inspire her with my determination
i used to be a much stronger person

but what am i. i am nothing. i did nth this year. except probably making mrquek more angry.
except disappointing mrtay who helped me so much in everything, in believing in myself.

i want to get the old me back. who doesnt give up easily who still loves running.
i know its going to be tough and i would struggle but please pray for me
i have to train twice or even thrice as hard to even get my old form back
to change my bad habits of sleeping little and eating junk
to not be distracted by things or people and start staying focused.
this is my last year i really need to work hard. because chances don come twice.
you don have to be talented to be skilled in something.
someone once told me that miracles happened and the most important ingredient is hard work.
this time i have the stongest opponent and that is myself.

pls help by constantly reminding me. about this goal im gg to achieve
asked if i have trained today and asked if i put in 100% effort.
if i dint slap me for me. help me to be strict with my diet and sleeping.
make sure im doing something useful each day and not wasting my life away.
thanks a million and because this time im not just going to defeat anybody
im going to defeat myself.

and i must i can i shall i will.

2006-11-26T18:42:00.000+08:00

an old song that i used to like, alot.
was just browsing through music videos and chanced upon this.
a really beautiful song, and the lyrics is great.

but what exactly is love
love is giving
love is amazing
love is trying
love is beautiful
love is confusing
love is touching
love is believing
love is forgiving
love is cherishing
love is thinking of you
love is myself doing stupid things
love is staring at your number but has no guts to call
love is looking at you when you arent noticing
love is sitting beside you and have nothing to say
love is hoping you would talk
love is worrying for your safety
love is wanting you to be happy
love is waiting
love is perservering
love is getting hurt
love is not possessing you
love is letting you go
love is loving you.

ohh and i watched the entire series of wars of in-laws show already
nice ending! watch finish can start playing gb with class again lol.

and do take care for your trip.

2006-11-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGIE! (((:

[click on pic to enlarge]
fun day! angie the queen was late hahahaha.
shisi ordered super sweet cupcakes! dat has a letter on each dat make up
'happy bdae angie' haha and de cupcakes tasted really nice!
manquan got a nice notebook which i almost wanted to get 0.0
oh in de end i got angie a novel/journal which looked interesting to me. lol.
cheryl as her usual ego self gave angie a big pillow with her own name 'cheryl' on it. how stupid.

anyway five of us met for lunch which mq brought us to the indonesian restaurant
ehh the food was not bad, its at far east plaza.
ohyea it was a really retarded lunch because like we were seriously crazy.
shisi was commenting to angie
'caijing makes a lame joke every 30mins i dunno how you can survive'
den like after awhile more she said
'i changed my mind. its every 15mins.'
haha and we concluded that mq looks like a prawn. seriously!
but i tot theres this worm keychain dat looks like him more
and when i imagined it i started luffing like non stop
anyway mq got this lip infection thing which i gotten before
so like he was eating his spicy noodles happily and almost finishing it
den i exclaimed 'oh shit i forgot to tell you lip infection cannot eat spicy food!'
he was like 'now you tell me' and den he stopped eating and all and was super worried
that the condition would get worse, but still was super hungry
told him he shud just continue eating since dat would be his last meal LOL.

by the way got new invention! as in i tot of it during the lunch and told dem
like you sing happybdae song on someone's bdae.
den on 11.59pm dat night you sing happybdae song backwards
ehh shit dats damn cool, imagine singing
'you to birthday happy' x 4 so it would be a nice ending for a happy birth day!
oh yea right.

so there was neoprints which angie wanted to take and she forced mq to go in with us lol.
haha he seemed tramatised. anyway there was a neo of him looking most retarded
but i lost it. =.= oh why oh why.

den yea we went to meet meiqi peixuan vic yun at the mrt station
they made alot of food for angie! haha and meiqi drew a big card super cute.
den we were just like slacking ard dere, when angie's wound at the knee kind of bled -.-
holy the wound was damn gross. anyway shes seeing a doctor tmr [literally]
so yea may the wound get well soon!

gave mq an english name: police. so cool! like got pple wna fight u
just say 'im police' oh shit they all run away and u wont even be lying!
and like ur fren calling your hp number pple asked who they are calling
'oh im calling police' ehh isnt that very cool!

okay whatever caijing my toes are laughing.

and yea i need to find a dance partner! dance today and uhh instructor said
if i find a dance partner can train us to be like more professional
wna learn chacha. anyway wanyu also wna find a dance partner too.
ohyea like as if it was easy [shit i think i said it before]
anyway im gg to be on some asking spree these few days! till i find a good one. tada.
but so far i only asked one! lol lazyyyy.

and i needa help divya make this chinese translation thing
because shes gg to china for holiday so she need to learn how to speak some mandarin
in any case got to write the han yu pin yin! haha hope its useful for her
maybe can add some other cheeky stuffs too ha ha ha ha.

oh yea and tot of some stuffs today but i guess i will blog bout them tmr.

2006-11-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

blogskinners bbq today at pasir ris.
hm interesting how pple turn out different from the pple they are on the net. haha.
and omg there were like so many pple that were like so young -.-
felt damn old there. oh holy.
anyway gained some insights haha hmm.

thankyou xiaoping for organising the bbq and congrats for being the new featured contributor for blogskins. com! (:
thankyou lek + javier + colleen for the walking and fun!
sorry eric for causing you to fall off the swing -.-

watching the war of in-laws show on you tube now! whee.
and angie's birthday tmr! hahahaha gogo wish her happy bdae, tmr that is. (:

i like my hp wallpaper now. and don try to steal my hp to find out why. -.-

2006-11-24T00:40:00.000+08:00

AHH CAN SOMEONE STOP MY HICCUPS.

-hiccup!-

2006-11-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

he may seem far away but sometimes
the one you have been looking for
may have been right beside you all along.

wanna thank roy for cheering me up last night!
haha tho he kind of did it unintentionally.
wasnt in the right mood to do anything last night
then this guy said he wanted to start playing his gb again
and so asked me to go play with him
ahah so we created a room for 1 v 1
and he set the title as 'ggxx for caijing' -.-
anyway it was a fun time, winning and losing, cheering and cursing.
but i still think roy is a noob LOL. kidding.
den we played two more games with my classmates which my team won hahaha.

anyway today! trg was okay. was kind of slacking at the first part
den i quickened the last 4k and all.
anyway we are trg at pandan reservoir on monday
hello pandan reservoir, nice to see you again.
after trg went j8 with divya, stephanie and loong.
hahahah roy was supposed to join us but when he called me i already left for home lol.

den went vivo city to meet bao! (:
haha shared lots of stuffs, bout things dat happened over the past few mths and all
haha yea saw huixin + gang! haha! so funny always see dem when im out with bao.
lots of window shopping, and woah there were like many many many shops!
i think we can try training at vivocity. its real big.
and i like those areas when u can view the sea and the scenery.
haha bao and i agreed that it is a good place for couples! lol.
anyway there was this shop called 'chocolate factory'
we went in to get free choc smell
but the chocs were like omg tempppttinggg.
and they cost a bomb. not that u can really buy a bomb with that amt but you get the drift.
sighh aye when i get rich when i get rich! that will never happen.
and ohh we ate haagen daaz ice cream! cookies + chocolate flavour. yumms!

den bao went home den aaron came.
haha to buy presents for angie!
and okay we did quite a long search and all.
but yea finally got the gifts already!
omg aaron really sweet lar crap angie gonna be so lucky. ahem.
anyway uhh got the warcraft installation cds from him!
haha means im starting to dota soon. very soon
then get pwneddd and get ggxxed and get cursed and scolded noob.
see how mentally prepared im.

2006-11-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

all please hold your breath.
look at your surroundings and make sure there is absolute silence.
pause for a few seconds, and then take a deep breath.

a deep, deep long breath.
following this would be a news i would break to you
with every slight of solemn in each tone
and please assure me that you do not, i repeat, do not, attempt to laugh.

The volunteering thing is supposed to be on 29november.

i am a week early.

ahyes. i went thru much trouble, trekking through the thick layers of mist
in search of the great vehicle that i could identify as a shuttle bus to the hospital
only to use the last resort - taxi to cab my money away
reaching upon the great place i was once born at
hail the majestic building! nice to meet you again after 17 years!
of such awe i passed all obstacles to find the great volunteer room at level 4
to find it locked, but no big deal i could call the person-in-charge
only to have her breaking it to me gently, very gently, very very very gently
'erm.. you are supposed to be here next week, not today'
[may i have the thunder sound for sound effect]

so i was too excited to see the exact date and came a week early.
but as the saying goes, every cloud has its silver lining
at least im a week early, not a week late.
and hereby i broke my record of the earliest time i could get- a week earlier!
now beat me to that. i bet you cant do that. ha ha ha.
in any case, now i know how to get there too.
so i mistook newton as novena and uhhh couldnt find the bus.
alrights, lesson learnt. and yea i met the person-in-charge earlier!
she was still laughing about my situation, cant blame her.
anyway den she showed me around abit
and i watched the performance by some school choir
oh and good thing i dint buy the balloons today which i wanted to at j8
as i decided to buy them at christmas and when i got to know the kids better
imagine my horror. if. i. held. the. balloons. and. got. the. news.

okay nvm. im now addicted to this show on channel 55 'War of In-laws'
super nice. heres a mv made by some great lady about the main characters

about the drama:
shiyi the female, a bandit, accidentally got into a sedan for marriage as she tried to run off from the constances. So she was married to this man, Maochun, with the princess as her mother-in-law. the mother-in-law was domineering, so it was like a clash of two hot-tempered ladies. alot funny stuffs. anyway, Shiyi once saved by this masked guy, called the Nameless Hero, and they met a few more times after that. She falls for this charming Nameless Hero, not knowing he was actually in fact her husband whom she thought was 'indecisive and like a wimp'. Her husband of course has been liking her for long ever since she came into his life, but did not break it to her he was the Nameless Hero. Shiyi slowly falls for her husband as he treated her very well, so its like, the two guys she like is actually the same person. rest of the story go watch to find out.

Seriously i think no one can look so good with that mask.
that guy is super super super charming when he wears dat mask.
i think i can just die looking at him. and he was like so cool and all.
each time saving her and all. aye he just rock.
the girl in de show is so lucky, i envy her.
because its like the Nameless Hero she likes likes her too! haha.
isnt it the most amazing thing when someone you have been admiring
feels the same way about you?
but otherwise you would feel like the world has crashed or something?
you would just feel at the extremes when this kind of thing happens.
depends on which side you are at then.

anyway if you don mind watching another vid of the drama heres another one:

by the way i was feeling real lousy today.
i dunno why, but my heart was like sinking real and i don feel like gg out at all.
its like, as if, dementors were all around you [if u read harry potter]
and you felt like you can never be happy again. yes that kind of feeling.
and if my head doesnt know why my heart feels like that
maybe my heart knows something that the head doesnt.

i wish i wasnt sad, i wish i wouldnt frown
i wish you were here to make me smile
i wish i could have a Nameless Hero too
i wish for all the things, but none came true.

2006-11-21T23:39:00.000+08:00

glad that there are pple who are interested in the volunteering! (:
hahah thanks! cos it means pple are really reading my blog LOL.
alrights today was one word: fun.
okay at first it was quite boring.
in fact VERY BORING.

because we have to put on make up [which is alot] by some makeup artist
frigging early in the morning, and then waited for like a few frigging more hours
for the entire thing to set up. =.=
whats worse, the girls scene was the last scene. -.-

so there were three other girls from acjc, one whom i kind of knew haha.
anyway i also have no exact idea what the whole thing is for
but jie and xide have to like act out this stupid thing
dat is jie sleeping looking retarded [which he din even need to act, he's so natural at it]
and xide would be like taking picts of dat retarded sleeping look
and then the next scene is uhh the 4 girls on de swing chitchatting
and den i would have to pretend i received an sms
and den looked at it and be shocked and amused
well tts cos its supp to be like i received de pict msg?
and den i have to like show the rest and we all have to luff at it.
den later we have to like use de hp to video ourselves.

okay seriously this was damn stupid lol. we had alot of takes.
because 1) we cudnt luff because we are luffing at nth
in fact as we were luffing vishnu was muttering
'im laughing because im laughing for no reason' HAHA.
and then 2) i have to act shocked and amused
they have to focus on my facial expression i think my facial muscles almost died.
nvrtheless it was funny. because i made alot of stupid faces den the other three were like -.-
anyway it was finally all done
after SEVEN HOURS. thank goodness tt was damn not long at all! how sarcarstic.

ohyes, mr lowxide's good xcountrymates crashed the house. LOL.
so there was seet, victor, kevin, changming etc that were turning the house upside down.
but seriously without them the atmosphere could have killed a fly.
seet and victor damn funny lar, they played dota
and as we were shooting downstairs you can hear their voices
'ehh your mother sings' 'ehh your mother cooks'
when xide's mum was downstairs with us. LOL WHAT THE.
this is their new form of uhh, scolding each other. how retarded.

ohyea so after that we played winning eleven! some soccer ps2 game.
okay it was my very first time playing dat but jie only scored two against me
xide and seet were playing pool beside us which seet got pwneddddd.
yea damn fun. all in the attic. shit my favourite room of the house.
anyway victor damn funny lar, win penalties den he ran around the room
like as if he really was the soccer player like that LOL. damn funny i died luffing there.
okay maybe not cos im typing here.
ohyea victor is brent's cousin! haha. yes, they look kinda alike.
just tt victor younger, took Os this yr. and he wants to go acsib badly.
haha can understand that, the team is very united. like woah.
anyway dinner was damn mad. with those guys = with bunch of monkeys. jokes.

and my hp is at its official dying stage. seriously i need a new one.
darn xide haolianing his ultra thin hp dat is one day old &#*!&#*.

okay tmr will be a fun day too! if you dunno why then uhh, your mother sings.

2006-11-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

ive got so many things to blog about [actually not that many]
and i dunno how to start.

and oh shit im having hiccups now -.-

today is bao's last Olevel paper! say hooray!
she studied really hard for it and its finally time to enjoy! (:
meeting her this thurs wheee!
and she told me she saw something scandalous today lol.

i somehow cudnt remember exactly what happened yesterday
crap i lost my memory! must be due to the banging of my head just now
could you believe i was like walking into the toilet
and i hit my head REAL hard into the door. how clumsy how caijing.

and im so happy because
my volunteering application is SUCCESSFUL! :D
im so glad! ((: haha i applied for it quite a few weeks ago
and i asked a few to join me but most aint confirmed and all
so uhh decided to go ahead myself
but of cos ure still welcome to join me!
but you need to commit for six months tho so yea (:
im volunteering at KK hospital in which i get to
ENTERTAIN THOSE SICK CHILDREN! :DDDD
omg i swear this is so fun and so meaningful, and i get to do sth that i like.
most of us here are really blessed that we dint get sick when we were young
but there are really many out there that do and they would feel
very very very very miserable. like duh. so yea make their stay at the hospital enjoyable! (:
if ure interested just contact me at speed_caijing@hotmail.com

so im gg for the volunteering briefing this wed and yea get to join
them for a round of Ward Entertainment commencing :D
haha this week gonna be real exciting. (:

because saturday is our dear angie's birthday! (:
haven gotten her a present yet but yea we gonna party crazily! haha hope so
yea just pamper this pretty princess of mine, and many others. :D

then friday there is the blogskinners outing which i will meet alot pple! haha
and xiaoping said there would be media coverage -.=
i better shoo before they take pics of me or sth
not that they would ever want to, haha! okay whatever.

thurs would be meeting bao! got LOADS and TONS to tell her!

and then tmr yea, will be fun too (:
xide asked me to go to his house for some photoshoot thing for some roadshow
haha asked what i had to do and he said 'just look pretty and hold handphone and smile'
haha! sounds like fun. and jie is gg too so its double the fun = funfun.
jie said with his face on it the handphone gonna 'sell like hot cakes' lmao.
i bet they see his face everyone dowan buy already. kidding.

today was good too! econs the usual boring then breakfast with roy + frens
trg in de afternoon. i improved! yay. but still far from my sec4 form.
err and it started raining heavily when im running bout 5/6k zzz
and there was lightning and thunder and all around me was trees [trg is at macritchie.]
and i was really afraid that i would just die like that LOL.
but i seem to run even slower haha dunno why.

ohh and i am having a running nose hmm maybe it runs faster than me. -.-

ohyea by the way scotts shopping centre is having some big closing down sales!
apparently all the shops inside are moving/closing down [not sure]
but in any case its a big sale like 50-80% discount!
so yea buy ur xmas presents early! haha.

which remind me, if ure posting xmas cards to anyone [im likely will]
post them before december 18th for the postage fees will be higher after that
so yea i hope you got the info! (:

oh and i don dota! haha someone told me theres a 'caijing' in de dota thing.
but nope that wasnt me! its probably some fan of princess hours.
or some other caijing in this world that plays the game.
in any case, its not me! so yea don talk to her thinking it was me! haha.
when i do start playing i will post my nick here and all. so yea.

life's good! (:
tho the only sucky thing which is my hp's screen which spoils for the 3298392th time today.

2006-11-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

never mind the differences we have
never mind the distance between us
ignore the rest of the world
throw all your worries aside.

the could haves and should beens
the might haves and would beens
they aint your reasons to hold back
hey boy dont hide your feelings.

take your chances dont take it slow
once they are gone you cant have them back
because time has a habit of slipping away
and so do hearts as they grow faint.

so what's there stopping you boy
dont let your head rule your heart
if you feel it, come closer dont be afraid
and we shall leave the rest to fate.

because we can be more than just amazing;
if you are willing to let me show you how it can be.

okay cant believe i wrote that, all my myself.
anyway if you like it you can take it. haha.
and maybe if ure lucky ur intended person will read it (:
well im not lucky tho. lol.

anyway! tiring these two days
firstly try waking up early in the morning to face three hours of chem
with absolutely no one to talk to. like hah i don really know the pple.
ohwels the price of stupidity and so im stuck here i cant complain
good thing tho, i paid attention and i bet its rare. lol.

well after dat went to airport!
met up with class to send off keth angierhan bk for their trips
keth for laos, angie for cambodia and bk for australia
take care yea! just return safely! (:
haha keth asked what i would like to get
and i asked for a photograph of the cutest kid there he would meet!
same thing for angie too, whee!
gahh i should have signed up for the trip too but i missed de deadline -.-
ohwels nvm. at least there are stuffs to do in sg too! haha.
ohh so the rest of the class just slacked ard in airport
like watching planes fly and me imagining the planes dancing LOL
okay that was random but i was like excited for non existant reasons

todays trg! nicole said she would come but she dint =(
nicholas [our senior] did tho! haha long time no seeeee.
and so did mok and jiangyan! mok looked like he has never taken As.
so carefree and non stressful. darn too smart alr.

dance in de evening! saw johnathan practising with his partner when i came.
damn they are really good. like woah.
dint expect johnathan to be so good.
[he plays rugby in his school]
anyway they two are such perfect combi! (:
and yes which leads me thinking i shud go get a dance partner too
not that its ever easy. most guys don like to dance
and the time factor and all crap.
benny was keen but his mum wasnt -.-
so you see the step up show is a fake! like where can find partner so easily! ha!
[and im sure i go auditon pple also -.-]

anyway learnt those dance moves that were really nice to see
but its really tough to do it. like i have to keep my posture
and uhhh i dunno, rhythem and all. fine practise more.
and i got my cert alr! of the dance exam remember on october 1st :D
yea got honours! whee. (: its the rank for 91-95 marks.
highest would be distinction 96-100. but that would be imba. not me. lol.

den yea went to marina bay to join some class pple for steamboat dinner!
omg they stuffed me with all the chicken and pork meat
eating layers and layers of fat! how long am i gg to run to burn these
but nevertheless its fun! and i dint pay for the food LOL
because you pay for the eating utensils and den yea grab all the food you want
and so.. we share the eating utensils! yay. so in de end i just paid for my drinks.

j2 farewell is coming! and the theme is disney magic. LOL what the.
i may like to dress up as a cookie monstor [which well im]
but its not exactly part of disney is it,
so maybe bugs bunny or tweety or whatever
well if you can think of a good one tell me in my guestbook haha.
divya is dressing up as... crap i dunno what is it.
as in she told me but i still dunno whats that. maybe ive a deprived childhood.
ohyea cinderella is part of disney right! LOL.
im sure i might as well dress up as the pumpkin before the transformation into a carriage
then go around shooting pumpkin juices at everyone
and that would be GRAPE, i mean GREAT.

2006-11-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

sometimes all you need is just one chance;

hahahha yay finally divya signed my guestbook! :D
haha she very funny, said she wanted to tag my blog but cudnt find any lol
according to her my blog is very 'cool but confusing'
lol thats why the signmyguestbook blink blink is for. (:

anyway! step up is damn hot. i mean de dancers and de dances.
the music is really hot too. i went on some searching spree
found my favourite here :

damn hot makes me feel like dancing when i listen to it -.-
ehh breakdance is a super hot dance lar! shit i always wanted to learn
guys who can breakdance will be super cool too :D
anyway,step up is a nice show! go watch it!
~~[and PPLE LIKE ROY CRIED DURING THE SHOW.]~~
okay oops i wasnt supp to say it! =.=
i bet the tears was cos the dancers too hot he cudnt take it.

watched it with cheryl angie + aaron!
haha aaron joined us cos he was with angie in phy remedial earlier on
then again asked him quite long ago to join us he kept saying broke
den today when angie asked him straight away yes. WOW so unfair LOL.
anyway it kinda drizzled a little before we went to cine
so two pple SHARED MY umbrella [which is small =D]
shit i aint creating any scandal am i? like wow who are the two?
hmms i was walking with cheryl in de rain. [if you still cant get the hint.]
so yea i aint telling who lalalaa. [omg this is how retarded.]

okay enough nonsense. the movie was great!
and haha farrell's class was in de same theatre as us! lol cool.

after shisi came over and she was showing us her manicure
and its like so funny hahahahaha.
and we met vic too! lol world is shrinking.
walked ard and all & i bought a tiara hair thing! damn cute.
so princessy. haha but i like!

alright i missed wednesday's chem [overslept -.-]
so yea i must go for tmr's one. if not i ggxx.
probably one or two gb games den go sleep! tada.

and when it's gone, you cant have it back.

2006-11-15T13:29:00.000+08:00

anne got a really beautiful song in her blog
so i found it and shall share it with many others! (:

sand in my shoes - dido.

Two weeks away it feels like the whole world should've changed
But I'm home now
And things still look the same
I think I'll leave it till tomorrow to unpack
Try to forget for one more night
That I'm back in my flat on the road
Where the cars never stop going through the night
To a life where I can't watch sunset
I don't have time
I don't have time

[Chorus:]
I've still got sand in my shoes
And I can't shake the thought of you
I should get on, forget you
But why would I want to
I know we said goodbye
Anything else would've been confused but I wanna see you again

Tomorrow's back to work and down to sanity
should run a bath and then clear up the mess I made before I left here
Try to remind myself that I was happy here
Before I knew that I could get on the plane and fly away
From the road where the cars never stop going through the night
To a life where I can't watch sunset
And take my time
Take up our time

[Chorus]

I wanna see you again
Two weeks away, all it takes to change and turn me around, I've fallen
I walked away and never said that I wanted to see again

[Chorus x2]

I wanna see you again
I wanna see you again

i wanna see you again; but im afraid to.

2006-11-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

OMG I DOUBLE KILLED IN GUNBOUND 0.0

hahahahha crap that was fun! and tyco -.-
played with class using zhong's acc
[since i just started my lvl not that good to go zone 11]
haha i think its more fun to play with ur classmates den random pple u dunno! (:
anyway den yea at first i kept shooting myself [in de foot]
but later it was better, ahah and i cudnt believe i double killed! what an honour :D
okay whatever not like i score frigging 4As in my promos.

today! went to sch for econs remedial.
ahwels sat with divya and roy, who don have the ws lol.
anyway i paid attention which was rare. lol.
after remedial three of us went to coffeebean for breakfast!
haha gosh its my first time eating there alright.
i only like the toast bread =/ and i don drink coffee. haha.
and sth stupid happened
okay not sth stupid, is i stupid.
roy was telling me that when salt and pepper mixed with milk is an exothermic reaction
i was like 'really!' and both divya and roy acted like i was some alien
den roy poured milk over the mixture of salt and pepper and place his hand above the mixture
'can feel some heat already'
me the stupid one went to try to 'feel the heat'
and there SMAT roy hit my hand towards the mixture and my fingers were like yuck.
then they two started luffing with roy saying 'caijing zero. roy one.' -.-
nvm im gonna get TWO soon. watch out.

den divya went home to bathe
[during which on the train i said sth stupid dat both of dem cudn stop luffin -.-]
so roy and i went to marina sq!
omg this guy is a noob he hasn been to marina sq ever since its renovated
[not like ive been to alot of other places eg. vivocity]
anyway brought him around and window shopped some shops
alot of things really nice! like the roxy and quilksilver clothes. gahh.
anyway so we were at TIMES bookshop where we browsed through books
[which btw remind me, roy lend me ur five people you meet in heaven book!]
i saw some cute books! about what love is. (:
its those small minor things but its so cute. be it a for a friend/sibiling or a crush.
and den i was on this book when roy came over and he was so bemused
lol it was a wakeup call book for girls that titled : he is just not that into you.
lol ehh de book is not bad! certainly a wake up call. woah! haha
one particular page striked me:

if a guy really likes you, and if he wants to take things slow [for some personal reasons], he will let you know immediately. because if he really likes you, he will not want to keep you guessing and make you frustrated.

ahahaha. how true! so girls, move on if you meet guys that do otherwise! (:
just like what the book says, find someone who is worth you time! ((((:

and yea den later i saw a box of super adorable suicide bunny postcards!
super funny and adorable. damn nice! (: roy was like tempting me to buy it.
but it costs frigging 18.95 bucks. im broke! =(

den later we went to meet divya and suelynn! (:
haha gosh divya dressed up super hot =)
den lunched at pastamania [im becomin a pigggg alr.]
den roy went off for his trg den we three girls shop ard.
haha divya spotted a super nice blue skirt and wanted to buy it
but she wanted her mum to pay for it so she kinda reserved it for tmr
but they don allow reservation for sale items [topshop is havin some sale]
so yea! hopefully the skirt is still there tmr.
and i saw two lip balms that says 'for virgin' and 'for slut' respectively. LOL.

den i felt tired and went home first
where i met jiawen at cityhall! gee :D
will be meeting her again at blogskinners' outing!
which is on 24 nov at pasir ris park. hmms gonna see alot pple i dunno. lol!

and roy gave me this riddle website thing and im stuck on level 12 now. -.-
nvm im gonna pass this and level 13! haha den i can laugh at him [he is stuck at level 13]

oh no chem remedial tmr =.= have to sleep soon!
thats the price for getting owned in exams.

2006-11-13T22:12:00.000+08:00

training was awfully horrible
i needa buck up! if not i can kill myself
and divya was sad over some stuffs, don be! cheer up!
it may be some sort of miscommunication yea don think bout it.

and wenloong found some worm and decided to keep it as a pet
and he named it caijing -.-
and he said once it turns into a butterfly it wont be called caijing anymore, what the!

no gunbounding tonight, cos have to do econs remedial ws for tmr's remedial!
boohoohoo there are like so many qns and i cant do any at all
rahh rooh rehh rawr.

and i want this phone real badly!
its like so prettyaye and everything. santa claus can you give me this!
click to see how the phone is like.

2006-11-13T12:07:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 12 noon for consecutively two days
despite sleeping at 2 am for these two days

shit can i stop being a pig.

2006-11-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

went ps today! with family.
hahas ate at manhatten. yummyumms.
but its boring to shop with family becos they nvr go to the shops u wna go
they go like... other places. like those places that sells laptops etc -.-
anyway den we went to grandma's house.
or not really grandma's house since shes alr dead. but aye its been a year since i went there.
the last was.. the funeral. olevel period.
technically the period i broke down. with this all shitass stuffs dat happened.
which reminded me of how shuyi and some others helped me thru =)

okay whatever stop emo-ing, so yea haha anyway sth funny happened
my bro was like fooling ard [as usual] and den he switched on the tv
and the channel was some live channel from kranji horse betting place
my uncle likes to bet on horses so yea
anyway my bro was like suddenly saying 'number six number six!' before the race
den we were like quite amused so we went to sit and watched and waited
for the race to start.
asked my bro why number six and he replied cheekily
'cos he has buttocks'
and i went like 'WTH im sure the other horses don have butts'
den he was like 'this one has white panties!'
LMAO shit my bro is getting dirrrrty.
anyway den de race started and my bro was like 'six six six six!' cheering.
and six was leading first, den it was like overtaken halfway thru
and i went to luff at my brother like 'HAH YOUR NUMBER SIX IS DEAD'
and like guess what soon number six rushed forward and it was leading by ALOT at de last part
and it won =.=
my sis and i were like omg-ing. haha!
and my dad was like 'shit i dint buy' hahahah omg madness.
my bro was of cos, cheering away at his 'smartness' which is actually pure luck i must say.
but wth what kind of luck is that! i want!

anyway my gb skills are improving yay!
thanks to some nice pple who offer to help me along
like even when they donno me and all.
some tho, were super mean and all. like 'hurry up noob' to me. =.=
haha nvm. i killed some pple yay! aaron played awhile with me and he was how friggin pro.

i wna learn dota too! but first i need de installation. zzz.

2006-11-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

*edited profile! go click first *.

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okayy haha that was actually them commenting on de princess hours show.

anyway! just wna say i suihui! haha who is = LSH. lim sui hui.
haha trg was like super horrible but de vj pple were dere!
oh and i saw xide! jie was 'too tired to go for trg' zzz.
haha so yea anyway divya and i met emily and suiis at thomson plaza for like. awhile. -.-
den divya & emily went home so suiis and i went to town!
with our 'go to market' kind of clothes. z nvm.

went to long john to slack! waiting for the 'free market' to open! haha!
which is situated beside cine and there are like many stalls set up
by pple to sell items [clothes earrings and stuffs] at really cheap prices
yea u can go and check de stalls! (:

but de stalls werent fully prepared yet so we went to taka and just like slacked ard and see stuffs
talked stuffs too! and heh heh heh i drank my oreo bubble tea wheeeeeees.
want back to free market. i bought a super cute shirt! hahaha its quite funny.
suiis bought 2 pairs of earrings for 5 bucks! woah.
den it started to drizzle. lmao we ran into cine. slacked more.
and suiis brought me to de highest storey where those lan stuffs are!
like super cool, you can rent rooms to play lan and/or watch dvds! wow!
one day im going to do that man. anyone second that?

and the rain did not stop at all. in fact it was very heavy.
so suiis and i ran in de rain to de mrt station. which is crazy but fun! hahaha!
we were like luffing like mad thru the rain.
i hope no one saw us. 0.o

went home and slacked more! like what else do i do man.
den went for dance! yepps i really wna master de whole rumba!
cos i seen de whole dance and its really bea-u-tiful. (:
nvm keep on practising! the rumba walk was really tough lol.
and there was this betty jiejie who was helping out and shes was really nice
like taught me the hip movement and all.
and shes really good. like woah.
saw some presents dat i can give for those bdae pple! haha! now all i need is the $

i wna watch step up! its a romantic movie bout dance!
haha which is so fake becos so far in my dance sch i nvr see any sparks bet any partners
or not that i noe of anyway. but i noe quite a few so haha.
but anyway its nice to dream and thats what movies are for.
watching it with cheryl and angie! whee.

okay and i just started on gunbound. which i totally sucks at
either my keyboard is spoiled or my arrow lousy or its just me [i think it is.]
but i nvr seem to aim accurately and ended up looking like a retard.
i pity myself in de game. anyway i was so bored dats why im here. hah!

nvm i shall like go and train hard in de game like what they said.
btw my nick is msscarlet! do not attempt to kill me!
k byebye.

2006-11-10T19:57:00.000+08:00

i was so bored that i actually went to play NEOPETS.

and i lost each and every game.

class chalet!

2006-11-10T14:14:00.000+08:00

even when your heart is broken, it will continue beating.
life goes on.

gahhh so much unhealthy stuffs eaten at de chalet!
bbq stuffs: satay chickenwings sausages fish otah marshmallows
chips! many many many. and famous amos cookies [bought from tampines mall] !
yea our class chalet was 29 bus stops away from tampines station.
at this changi village and i tell you de chalet is effing cool!
the house was like.. all ours! its really big.
compared to other chalets i been to at least. and its so cheap.

hahaha so uhh first day! met the class in school and handed up I&R.
so now PW is OFFICIALLY over! :DDDDDDDDDD
yea and i wna thank all the members in getting thru this with me:
[tho none of dem reads this blog-.-]

jianzhi! yea without ur leading we probably died. thanks for like making sure we did our work and often did the 'clearing up' and stuffs. often make sure we get on to the track when we kinda sidetracked. as much as i said i hate ur 'yoZ' thing in msn cos it means i had to do PW, but i guess it would be weird now when theres no more yoZ! lol. and thanks for like letting me to vent my anger/frustration on you without retailiating. hahah.

nana! yea thanks for like luffing at my jokes when its not funny! and like thanks for doing so much work too! thanks for proving me wrong each time i tot we cudnt make it, thanks for adding so much more fun and joy in each boring PW meeting and stuffs. thanks for being so adorable! haha im really glad ure my PW member! (:

ngeekiang! haha! even tho u always said u were super lazy, but well PW showed that u werent! thanks for doing alot of work too even tho i know we all don like it. and even tho there may be some unpleasant moments during the course of work, but nvm its all over now! lets just hope we get the grades we deserve yea! ((:

yea alright. now back to chalet thing haha!
den some of us went to tampines mall to buy many stuffs!
charcoal plates food etc etc! 150 bucks in all! wow!
reached chalet around 3plus. settled down as boys played some frisbee/ball games
den girls just lazed around in the room.
ohh we have four rooms! cool right.
angie brought nail polish so we painted our nails!
nana painted for me, haha shes so good at it!
ohh and the boys also painted their nails too! lol gayyy.
den was some bbq with lotsa fun. anqing beany rae me played some truth or dare.
which was some retarded stuffs! thank goodness i dint gotten it. heh.
den i think i got high and started dancing around and playing ard.
haha super retarded! ohyea took a few pictures.
shall upload dem when i received de picts from nana/aq.
ohh den there are some stupid vids too.
one which jianzhi was hit by me. lol! and the other me and nana doing some exercise thing.
ohyea cheryl wasnt at the chalet cos she got some food poisoning. or at the first day at least.
alright den dad fetched me ard 9plus when some were playing twister haha.

2nd day! slacked at home. dint go for trg cos i was too tired.
but ran at my estate awhile den head for chalet.
this time met cheryl at tam mall before going. haha dats when i bought cookies!
i like tam mall alot. like woah so many nice shops!
sadly i stayed so frigging far away! if i stayed near tam mall
i would buy famous amos cookies like everyday. hahaha!
okay so we reached dere and den weisong ben cheryl and i played manjong!
my very first time playing manjong! boonkiat taught me.
wow its quite fun! BUT i dint even win a single round!
so much for 'beginners' luck' TSKTSK.
ohh den played some fighter game with zhong's XBOX!
hahahah i just anyhow spammed de buttons
so much so that zhong was afraid i would spoil his remote control LOL.
but ehhhh i can win leh! hahahahhahaha! so fun kicking and all.
den more of bbq and den like i dunno what exactly happened after i left
becos the guys came up with some retarded lcjz thing. zzz go figure.

anyway den de fun part! truth or dare!
and this time its like everyone play! haha except a few.
spin de bottle and all. haha de dares were effing funny/sick.
shant say who but i can say what right!
there were like kissing on de cheeks/kissing finger/dancing/nosetonose/
hahaha i gotten once for a dare! which im dared to be locked in a room for 10s.
dark room. quite scary if its alone! so they add on to a dare, include a guy! lol wth.
anyway glen got it. lol nvm my og mate! but he cudnt see me in de dark at all
he was like 'shit i cannot see anything' so i grabbed his arm and was like 'im here'
den both of us act retarded by purposely making stupid noises while de rest stood outside haha

ohyea den there were some other dares but i got dragged in!
like brent have to piggyback a girl and zzzzz some open numbers and i got it.
i was so afraid i would fall alright. thank goodness i dint.
oh and then jianzhi got a dare and beany omg beany!
she ah haha! so cheeky. they all lied to her dat
jianzhi dared de dancing thing of her and bk
when it was actually cheryl.
so she dared him
'i dare you to hug caijing for 5 seconds.'
omg dat was hell dots. but aye jianzhi was quite smart.
i was just standing there and his arms just go over me without touching me. yay!
den they were like not happy and wanted us to do the real hug.
but well of cos we dint! hahaha cos cannot waste time alr.
anyway this is just all for fun! tho alot scandals wor like ___ haha NVM.

den dad came at ard midnight so i went home!
was emo-ing at home but haha! yea thought alot of stuffs.
hmmms i guess i wont be thinking bout it anymore.
this time i will be free. free of this burden
i will no longer wait for something that will never come
but im going off to look for something that will.
because life goes on, and so am i.

ure part of a beautiful dream;
but its time for me to wake up.

2006-11-07T18:58:00.000+08:00

all the love in the world- the corrs.

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)

a song that is so perfectly for me. lol.

alright, haven been updating these days. cos of PW! rahh.
and its not entirely over yet. still got to do i & r and den hand in tmr
and tata! off to class chalet for some fun! :D

sunday! went for some pw den off to meet nicyeo! haha.
his church frens were dere too. lol funny church frens.
den we went to find gift. and yea we made clay! super nice de product.
de receiver is how freaking lucky. (((:

speaking which, its nic's bdae today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIN! hahahaha! :D
hahahah. yesterday was pw whole day again den went for trg?
trg was not bad, improved! but i felt like i dint push. err.
nvm thursday! means im not gg for chalet on thurs. aha. oops.
anyway not like i can stayover, mum doesnt seem too keen =/

today's OP! oral presntation. like omg i was nervous before dat.
but when we did the skit it kinda calmed me down.
and when its my turn, other den de starting which is abit weird
de rest was quite okay.
BUT! de q & a. tho i was fluent and seemed quite confident
but de answer is like not relevant to de qn la!

its like de qn is 'wads de criteria for a student leader to take on this role'
den i said what 'they will go thru strict interviews, probabtion period blah blah'
omg am i stupid or stupid?!
lol whatever, anyway cheryl's grp is not bad too.
and zhengya's answer for q & a freaking long lol
den later we discussed abit of i & r. [which i haven started at this pt of time, yawns.]
den took train home with keth!
and omg there was this weird person who was like standing in front of us
and he was like swinging himself so vigorously
we were like damn scared of him, and he looked like he was gg to pounce on me any moment -.-
so uhh keth was like blocking abit and all, in case he really did. -.-
haha thanks keth! (: and luckily de guy went off after a while.

okay yay can eat fried stuffs and all! don have to worry bout bad throat or sth!
wheee cookies anyone?

2006-11-05T02:29:00.000+08:00

haha hey all. i made a vid.
was bored these days. den again i wanted to make this vid for some time.
cos life is vulnerable and we dunno when it is time to leave
so i tot this vid was uhh well, sth to leave behind?
dunno how to put it in words but yea you get what i mean.

hope its nice. (:
but if it isnt, lie to me that it is kay? hahahah.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VsOOqu30WkA

2006-11-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

out of sight, but definitely not out of mind.

LOVELY 18TH AUDREY! :D
SWEET 17TH WANG GUAN! (:

PW dry run was okay! hahah dint expect the rating was quite lenient.
anyway better like go rehearse and prepare soon if not i die on tuesday!

life is gettin boring, but i really wna watch movies.
the prestige was good i heard. and i wna watch the guardian
and oh not forgetting step up! sighhh gimme money pls!

trg today i did really horrible. was like so tired i can just slp right in de forest.
then like some sleeping beauty! err whatever. sleeping beast more likely.
yea den went home to SLEEP lol. den uhh dance!
lol i must keep my posture! and stop looking at my feet! -.-
i think cos crosscountry you always look at the ground and run
den like abit hard to change. tskkk.

den went with shisi to join angie and peixuan for dinner!
hahaha den we shopped ard. anna sui is having some sale!
but still cos im broke. and i still need to get presents for agnes audd divya beany
gahhhhhhhh crap. and nicyeo's bdae is comin soon too. say whee. -.-

ohh and i bought this really lovely and sweet pink cherries hairclip!
it was said that a guy bought the cherries hairclip for the girl he loves
because the cherries on the hairclip means 'cherish' LOL!
hahah so sweet right! ((:

train ride home with angie and peixuan.
talked stuffs. emo stuffs.
sometimes if we can choose the things we want it to be, to choose who we love
maybe things wont hurt so much anymore
but if we can choose who to love
then it wont be true.

2006-11-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

kim tae hee and her [super hot] brother kim hyung soo/lee wan.
ahhh i want those genes too!!!

anyway pretty busy now, have pw OP dry run tmr. so needa prepare scripts and stuffs
anyway all de best to de pple taking As! (: audd! yanni wingyee cassandra nabil
and to all who are taking A level chinese tmr (:

yesterday was chem spa. which was horrible cos i got my ester part screwed up.
and darn it was in de mock spa lar. dot.
den later cheryl went for gym and den angie and i walked ard and all
hmm interersting stuffs happened. hahahaha.
den angie went for dance and cheryl came back den we went for run in gym lol
okayy gym was an interesting experience too. errr.

todays trg was horrible. i felt super tired and i was aching all over -.-
den pw to do scripts and rehearsal. haha quite fun!
anyway heres a song tt i think its nice! (:

"It Ends Tonight"

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

2006-10-31T16:19:00.000+08:00

Kim Tae Hee- one of the most beautiful woman ive ever seen.

shes de girl from stairway to heaven + love story in harvard.
seriously her natural beauty is like so beyond perfection
i love her eyes!!! so sparkling so bright!
and her smile totally matches. everything is so perfect

and she has like 1000000 adverstisements
i shall post one that illustrates her beauty most.
alright damn shes so pretty im posting two.
they are short so wont waste ur time!
somemore so beautiful don come complain. lol.

seriously. if i have half of beauty i can just jump down the building alr.

speaking which, i just gotten de dance exam pictures from wanqi
but omg they pale so much in comparism in kim tae hee.
or rather, they are not even comparable! -sobs.
and gahh i got no photoshop now so i cant even do the least job of beautifying them

[click on pictures to enlarge]

wanqi`wanyu`fugly me -.-

shall post the rest of the pictures tmr or sth. im feeling inferior. -.-

oh and happy halloween all! tho i have to study for chem spa cries cries cries.
yes and next halloween i have to study for the As adsdsdjfh.
looks like my childhood dream of gg to halloween party will have to wait longer den.

2006-10-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

i got my deathnote book finally! wheeee. =)
and i bought a cute deathnote keychain. haha im seriously mad.
and ohyes i read de whole manga yesterday. :D

yesterday & today = pw. ultimate sianness.
life seems boring! except well there's the chem spa skill A on wed.
which im not looking forward to obviously.

anyway today's the olevel hcl paper!
hahah hope those who did the paper did well. (:
esp baoo! haha she sure can do well, yay.

okay realise my posts are getting dry.
maybe i shall post some jc survival guide for de sec 4s soon. wahhaha.

2006-10-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

"Every Day I Love You"

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn something new
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

Everyday I love you more
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

i think i will melt if someone sing that to me lar. with nice voice of cos.
haha retarded. anyway todays dance lesson was great!
stayed back while this jap guy taught me de steps.
as in really really taught me. he is so perfectionist!
like this step the feet must face this way and move this way
i felt he was quite saddistic tho cos my feet hurt like mad
and he still so enthusiastically teaching me each and every exact perfect move
which is good! haha den i can dance with better moves.

my mp3 the screen spoilt! i cant see any words on it
so i have to like shuffle the songs blindly. lol!

ohyea aaron is cycling now. lol! his church has some overnight cycling thing
supp to go too with angie, but i dunno how to cycle! -cries.
nvm im gg to learn it soon during this holiday! -looks at cheryl.
btw pray that aaron will be safe cycling + don fall alseep! hahaha.

anyway on the train home today i really felt like fainting. gahh shit maybe im dying soon.

OHYES AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEANY you sweet and adorable girl (:

alot of things to say to you; but i dunno how.

2006-10-28T16:12:00.000+08:00

this is all so tiring.

2006-10-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

YOU STEALER RETURN THE BOOK ROARR. -.-

okay i borrowed SAT book from a friend and i went for pe leaving my stuffs in de classroom
and asjhgdhdhdahdhf someone stole the SAT book
and i have absolutely no idea how to break this horrible news to my friend.
omg horrible stinky disgusting terrible malicious retarded fellow!
how honourable of you to steal a SAT book! like wheres ur integrity!
if i find you with the SAT book im so going to skin you alive. =.=

okay whatever enough ranting. made a report but i doubt getting the book back.
sighh aye. sighhh aye. sighhhhhhhhhh aye.

yesterday was quite a shit. felt quite lousy the whole day.
and cheryl felt lousy too cos _______. haha hope its okay now.

anyway! today. watched deathnote with cheryl!
and and and i bought that black top finally! last piece tho.
and its a bit bigger tho. ~~uhh maybe for those with bigger boobs.~~
but its okay at the rate im eating i would be able to fit in no time. ha!
okay lar still can fit. i think. cos its super nice.
so uhh, deathnote! not too bad. a deathnote two coming up soon! wheee.
and im at chap 80/90 plus in de manga alr, finishing soon!

dinner was bad. and i don feel like saying it anymore.

anyway cheryl bought yamyam choc for me! im a happy girl.
but i would be happier if i drink oreo bubbletea from taka.

2006-10-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

last day, last chance, last glance.

suiis dint make it yesterday due to pw and teaching her friend olevel maths.
hahaha if she dint want to teach her friend just to go out with me she wouldn be suiis.
so yea (: i read more of the manga yesterday! and i did some stuffs but i cant rmb what exactly.

anyway today! school is nonetheless boring.
but someone did sth _____ [ i dunno how to describe it] which made me kind of amused or rather happy or aiya dunno what. nvm scratch that.
after sch cheryl and i went to mac for a long run! haha quite fun. nice to run with someone, the road would feel shorter! :D
yea and when we reached school, it started to rain-heavily! are we lucky or what.
shawn was spotted by me lurking around in rjc.
like tsk tsk his own gf aka cheryl also dint notice him lurking around.
anyway so three of us stayed in school for awhile.
den off to meet suiis! hahas she was caught in the rain.

we ate at suntec the convention centre the laksa + prata! :DDD
it was like, relieving the cedarxc moments where a big grp of us ate laksa together.
omgg as we were like talking bout moments i suddenly got an urge to cry.
like, really really really really really miss those moments.
with us all eating together, szemin getting all my prawns.
suiis and me dancing and crazying during the oac night under the moonlight.
so many so many things. i want to go back! really i do. i don mind spending 10 years doing all these again. okay sounds weird but this is how much i miss cedar. cedarxcteam.
at least back then im a much happier person.

den we went to marina square! shop for clothes.
omgg theres this black top thats really nice but its like 33bucks! not enough. =(
im gonna save up and get there back soon, quick! de sale is like over soon.
suiis was eyeing a certain top too. hahah limited wants. zz.
talked alot stuffs and we took pictures! hahahahha but all very retarded.
den well have to go back soon cos suiis needa do her pw script.

ohh! i bought famous amos cookies! :D
hahah i must grab the opportunity when i see one shop right? right! :D
so there! im going to get sick again! [after you see de food i just ate.]

and it will be long till i see you again.

2006-10-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

maybe we were on the wrong route all along;
so lets get it right.

i bought a death note! :D
well not exactly. the notebooks are still out of stock
but ive reserved one, so yay!
will get one around thursday i guess. whee cant waittt.

school's getting boring. but got tutorials to do. which i doubt i would do also lol.
pe was fun tho. we played uhhh floorball!
nope de fun part wasnt playing with de other classes
after our lesson we played with the teachers!
me cheryl angierhan anqing belinda. lmao super fun.
and the teachers were how pro. we only scored one at the end with mrseah as the goalkeeper
lol we screamed like crazy when we scored dat one goal -.-
but nvrtheless fun! :D

and tmr theres no sch! say yay. haha probably gg vivo city tmr with suiis! :D
hahaha hope its not that crowded. but in any case if you do see me say hello! (:
& i feel like.. going to parties! like bdae parties or best HALLOWEEN PARTIES.
anyone nice pls hold one halloween party? its like my childhood dream to go to one.
pretty please?

2006-10-21T19:29:00.000+08:00

new blogskin layout! ((:
haha i spent some time to find out the mistakes and editing some stuffs
and reading the deathnote manga, still a long way to go!
anyway lets hope i finish reading it before watching the movie.
but im like super super broke -.- still owe pple $ plus presents. sighh aye.
i hope someone read that. ahem.

okay anyway the blogskin uhh, the intro part is damn retarded.
i sound retarded thats what i meant. but aye lazy to edit much.
ohyes and click on the last * where i specifically select some of my past entries
where you can read! haha the first one [retarded videos] click that!
the videos are super funny. :D

anyway today!
trg in de morning, but saw the vj crossers after like so long
suihui pris pam szeling! hahah (: lunch at subway with de vj crossers together with nicole
nicole! all the best for ur Os alright! (: you can do it. yes top sports school. :D
den walked ard j8 with suiis. goshh been long since we talked!
talked quite alot, man i missed her like crazy.
and i told her bout cheryl dying to meet her and stuffs. LOL.
anyway suiis and i arranged to go out next week! like its a must lol.
we intend to go to the vivo city! hahas either on tuesday/wednesday/friday.
heard its quite good, haha anyway at least we get to explore!
cant wait! :D

okay tmr will be a boring day, gahh feel like going out! but lazy to ask pple -.-

okay dinnertime, my stomach's screaming.

2006-10-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

omg the deathnote manga is super interesting!
haha i shall pause now and leave the rest to tmr to continue reading.
super interesting! hmmm. i like.

2006-10-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

html still screwed. whatever. at least im gg somewhere tho.
anyway gotta trg tmr so i will make this fast.
pw dry run today. ultimate sianness.
i almost died of boredom if not for the fact that my grp is de 2nd last one
[this means im using the time to prepare stuffs]
den again aye i bet my presentation bores other pple too so yea.
okay and we did skit. which we dint even prepare at all lol.
and i felt like a total idiot just doing my own actions and all.
esp cos i see mdm fadilah NOT PAYING ATTENTION. zzzz.

okay i got like a super free weekend! deepavali no dance. [but damn still got trg]
i need to like go out soon, watch movies and shop!
but im like b r o k e so it may be good i stay at home too
rot and die rot and die. whatever.

and hahahha i got my super super super belated and impromtu bdae present today! -.-
a pretty necklace! whee. haha thankyou you-know-who-you-are! (:

AND I STILL WANT TO WATCH DEATHNOTE. [hint hint roy.]

2006-10-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

! and how could i forget this! -.-
bonvoyage angie! take care and enjoy your trip!
hahas she is flying off now to japan and will be there for a week
ahyes holiday with her family! im crazily envious.
don forget us when you meet hot hunks! like be sure to grab one for me yea. lol.
anyway i bet many of us will miss her presence but its okay she will be back!
happier and shinier! lol whatever.

and i still want to sleep.

2006-10-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

i was typing an angst-y entry bout how pw made me lose my sleep and all
den i pressed backspace cos i figured it would still be the same.

training at gym today! it was like my first time using a threadmill. haha.
divya was amused at this fact,
like she said she had not heard a tracker not using a threadmill before.
okay pfffts fine. hahas but its okay i used it today!
at first i was like some retarded shit, holding the thing and ran like so scared fell off.
let go after that of cos, dowan look like a noob.
quite fun lar, tho i got quite dizzy after that. hur hur.

pw OP tmr and i have not even draft my script.
woolehh impromtu! which may be better tho. hahahaha since i talk no sense at all.

i want to sleep. zzz.

2006-10-18T18:39:00.000+08:00

omgg im so touched,
thanks txa for burning so many so many songs for me! hahahs
i tot it was just mltr, but got click5, mcfly, evanescence wheee! :D
omgg thanks a million zillion william! hahahhahahas ((:

and also thanks to those who cheered me up yesterday
benny- for ur endless number of jokes
aaron- happy powerpoint! haha.
mok- for ur encouragement + ur mother fat joke!
flora, sara, roy- talking to me and cheering me up (:

yay for these nice people! (:

2006-10-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

my results suck. the end.

2006-10-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

im in such a terrible state now.
went to school just to get my physics and maths papers
and tata went home after that becos i really felt so sick
dint even go for trg, which changed to rj gym! missed opportunity to slack -.-
in any case, my nose is blocked and if i tried to sniff
my head would feel sick like as if some chemical went in like that hurrr
and my throat is really sore, each cough felt like im coughing blood =.=
i want to get well quick!
esp since tmr im getting my other papers back, econs and likely chem.
i need that energy to overcome the sadness when i get my chem back.

speacking which, i got my physics and maths papers back!
not exactly good, but i don really have any thing much to complain bout
not when i was sleeping half of the day each day before each exam
C for physics and a B for maths.
if werent for my careless mistakes i would have gotten a A!
in any case im still relatively stupid becos there are like more den 10 pple in my class
who got frigging 90+ marks! what on earth is up in their brains.
and ohyes my teammate gotten a 90 in his physics. some genius.
but ahyes we shant compare, right right! :D

right now im hoping roy got his AAAA or his AAAB
[which actually, after seeing my results + some others, its highly likely for a genius like him]
then i can watch deathnote- for free! wheeeee.
and hopefully by then, i will be able to recover! nachos cheese yumyums.

anyway i uploaded some videos from princesshours.
different from the other vids you see on youtube cos this has the chinese translation thing
ohwels, enjoy! [and hopefully i wont get caught from uploadin this vids]

perhaps love-princess hours[without dialouge]

ni wo shi sa gua/stay.

perhaps love[with dialouge]

okay back to mourning in my bed. medicineeee! rahh.
send me get well soon cards! HA HA HA. i like cards. credit cards more. -.-
okay that was a joke. they say sick pple's jokes are not funny too.
so yea i just proven another theory.

2006-10-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

im like super super sick-.-
yes my expression now is like that, small puffy eyes and a very bad nose
got like super bad flu. and sore throat. gosh i wish i can stop sneezing.
and somebody said sneezing = somebody thinking of you like HA HA HA.
and we are getting results tmr. i hope no one thinks my sneezing has got to do with anything.

okay and i tried to change my blogskin layout!
but the html is screwed. like my nose. gahhh whatever.

i wish my laptop dint crash on me a couple of weeks ago.
why is my life so retarded, having your laptop crashed just when you are about to
print your final final final pw report that fateful morning.
and i wouldnt even have to do the stupid html now,
i would alr have a nice layout! agdsahgdasgd.

okay they say sick pple grumble alot.
there i proved the theory.

2006-10-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

blog song: perhaps love from princess hours.
i like the title of de song alot. and of cos the tune.

anyway, open house! fun. :D
we did a couple of dances, i danced with all de different pple!
first time with boonshing, den 2nd time with kethloo
den last 2 times with jerick [or how you spell tt] from council
hahahs jerick is really good. boonshing is not bad
kethloo can just bang his head into de wall lol. okayy joking.

and de ppg brought pple around, hahahs not bad
but dint get to drink water so i was pretty sick at de end of de day =(
saw some juniors! and brought some too. (:
hope they enjoyed de tour! tho i kinda suck at touring pple around lol.

anyway im like already very not feeling well
but cheryl and angie dragged me to play bball -.- with de bballers.
esther super pro! (: actually all de bballers are just pro.
im super redundant. like occupy space and snatching oxygen and all.
retarded, should not have went. whyyyyyyyyy.
anyway den later dinner with ppg + aaron.
ahhahahas all de jokes abit not funny. and angie could guess aaron's riddle. wow.
anyway we chatted till quite late den tata home.

todays trg nicole from sports school joined us! (:
hahahs pretty funny imagine her wearing sports school uniform for first three mths!
for those who nvr seen sports school uniform[for girls] its like this:
black polo tee den pair of skorts. or whatever you call that.
means its shorts, but in front look like skirt cos of the extra layer of cloth.
yea pretty cool and unique!

anyway de princess hours de female lead said sth that totally voiced what i felt.
like, totally.

2006-10-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

faint heart never won fair lady;
a thousand taels cannot buy a second chance.

omgg blogger really takes ages to load.
anyway one word for befrienders dance: tramatised.
seriously i was like pissed off at everyone, even myself.
okay de pissed is just a minor part, tramatised is the word.
but thanks to benny! who saved my day. hero! haha. :D

whatever don care alr. tmr is the open house!
have to get to school early, some befrienders meeting
den tend xc booth from 10-12 with loong, yay fun! :D
den befrienders dance at 12. den start duties!
lets hope its fun tmr den. well it better be.
okay and i better start learning de dance steps later.
or well, invent my own steps den.

after de befrienders dance went to eat at town with angie and vic
where i saw hannkhee! hahahs he gave me a shock.
and i saw him again at de libary. lol
oh no we went to lib not to study, but to borrow fiction books!
i borrowed two. whee can spend my time tmr.

alright, de interesting thing bout today is my trg.
well why you may say, since trgs can never be interesting
not when you have been trg in crosscountry for like 5 years and all kinds of trgs
but today i ran with a 12 year old hahahhas.
rui yong's sister to be exact, who is on de waiting list to mgs.
mgs train with rjc thats why. anyway mrquek wanted me to pace her for her 4k
after her 4k den i do another round of 4k.
to pace! take care more likely. hahas.
she was really petite and like super shy. unlike ruiyong tsk tsk.
and to think i saw rui yong when i got out of rj hahas

during de first part of de run, she was coughing.
i was so afraid she would die on me. like seriously.
well i guess i could carry her back if she really did.
and running with someone so young is seriously hard work.
becos u need to ensure you doesnt die on her instead.
but in any case, once a psl always a psl!
and den she suddenly talked bout snakes as we went downslope
i was like 0.o hahahs. cos i never figure she would actually open her mouth to talk.
not to strangers like me anyway. but yea she did.
den thruout de rest of de run we chitchatted like some nuts.
hahahhahhahahahas gosh. and towards de end of de run
i was telling her not to talk in case coach sees us. -.-
what a good influence i am.
anyway before she left she went up to me and said with a cute voice
'thanks for running with me today'.
hahahs omgg! i was smiling to myself like nuts after that
den i ran into some spiderweb. wad the.

and some nj canoeist was hyperventilating badly and sent to hospital.
scary. hope shes well now.

and don go into macritchie toilet after seven
becos there are like several lizards on de ceiling so ready to pounce on you.

2006-10-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

hahhas take a look at this, something bout roy!
click on picture for larger view:

2006-10-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

im one of the honoured five chosen by roy heng cunning bear
to do this super dunno what survey. or was it even called a survey.
~~i shall do rj pple too. hmms.~~
after the 7th person i decided to include anybody. lol.
anyway here goes:

Name twenty people you can think of right now. Don't read the question(s)until you've named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose five people to do this]

1. roy, the banana dancer.
2. cheryl
3. angie
4. divya
5. anqing
6. loong
7. belinda
8. baoyue
9. michh
10. suiis
11. farrell
12. ronghua
13. jie
14. xide
15. issac twin
16. desmond
17. manquan
18. benny
19. angierhan
20. rae

man coming up with 20names at one go is tough.

========
How did you meet #17?
first few days thru my og mate in rj! he stays super near me so there.

What would you do if you didn't meet #4?
omggg life would be so sad! she brings joy and laughter to my life

What if #12 and #3 dated?
omg angie and ronghua! lol they know each other anyway.

Would #9 and #20?
would wad. michh and rae, yay great frens!

Describe #6.
loong. someone who nvr fails to bully/suan/laugh at me. whole day trying to scare me.
but without him, trg will be sian!

#11 attractive?
hahahs farrell. hmms hmmms. attractive to his fans!

Describe #10.
suiis. omgg shes like my idol. perfect, beautiful inside and out. (: im glad i met her in my life.

#15 family members?
ME! twins! :D

What would you do if #1 confesses to you that he likes you?
of cos he likes me wad. everyone likes me.

What language does #18 speak?
he doesnt speak, his body show the language! [he is a breakdancer, or brokendancer if he insists. :D]

Who is #12 going out with?
hahas ronghua! tell us. :D

how old is #19?
sixteen! cos her bdae in late nov. hahas.

When is the last time you spoke to #16?
today! he was iceskating with us too. classmate!

Who is #5's favourite band/singer?
hahas i think she likes de same kind of songs as me. realised today at the iceskating rink. :D

would you ever date #7?
belinda! but of course. :D

Would you ever date #4?
divya so hot of cos date lar.

Is #2 single?
you say leh. shes still out with her darling shawn now you say leh.

What's #13's last name?
hahas jie! full name: kenneth khing zhen ze. kkzz. hahahs!

Would you ever be in a relationship with #14?
xide!lol omgg i hope jie doesnt see this if not he starts teasin again.

School of #6?
RJC!

Where does #9 live?
somewhere in aijunied. (:

What's your fave thing about #8?
baoyue. everythingg! (: i love her to bits.

Have you seen #5 naked?
omggg wad a qn. anqing is only for her future husband! (:

__________

okay the pple to do this:
all de pple on de list who have blogs (:

2006-10-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

alright i gotten my laptop back!
alot things to do, now that all my stuffs were gone.
send me nice songs! hahas. pictures-ohwels.
anyway im like photoshop-less too. no skin soon.
but de previous skin i wanted to make; the pictures were uploaded in photobucket
except the better version wasnt uploaded.
but nvm use de not so good version den.
shall do the html when im free. sighhhs redoing html! -.-

anyway. yesterday was befrienders dance.
missed it on monday so me and cheryl were partner-less.
this dance you need to have a partner of the opposite sex.
aye rj whole day dance all boys and girls dance. encourage relationship issit.
anyway i partnered samuel from trackandfield.
it was fun! and samuel is a not bad dancer.
and he was very nice about it whenever i stepped on his foot/scratched his fingers-.-
but in any case he is from morning shift and he alr has a partner
so i have to find someone else! sian

today. ice skating! hahahs fun.
im bascially a noob. like wont you be if the last time [and only time] you ice skated
was like freaking a year ago.
anyway anqing and rae were very nice and helped alot
esp anqing! yay thanks for all de various movements.
and we talked bout some stuffs hahas (:
anyway happy birthday jason! our another ct rep birthday.
i bet he muz be quite honoured to have a dedication at de ice skating rink
den i went home. after like abusing my darling feet.

den i went for a slow jog downstairs.
and omgg some 22 year old guy asked for my number while i was running.-.-
i looked de worst during running pls.
he wanted to find running friends dats what he said.
i said im 17 he was like 'so young?!'
okay lor i look like old hag when i running, happy

watch princess hours! nice drama serial gogogo watch!
on youtube/borrow vcd/ tuned in 7pm weekdays channel U
and de princess has my name! :D cool x 10000
but why she got a prince! wheres mine.
i bet he is dead somewhere. zz.
same name different lives. someone cry for me please.

2006-10-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

'love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
it always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.'

-1 Corinthians 13:4-7

2006-10-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

someday we will know if love can move a mountain
someday we will know why the sky is blue

i think im falling sick. i dunno, i hope not.
so im resting early tonight. yesteday was rushing chem hw so dint manage to slp early.
anyway yesterday's lunch was great! dad brought us to this sakura jap buffer restaurant
omgg de food are like how tasty. so much food to eat!
and i felt so fat after that. but okay thats besides the point, just go there eat!
den pw which we discussed abit and den i borrowed two books from de libary!
okayy i read dem yesterday, both. some reading marathon.
i like de second book! super cool. alright shall borrow more books.

other den doing stupid things in school theres isnt anything interesting.
trg was okay, but my improvement is like snail-ing. divya is improving way lot. good for her.
and i heard somethings from my teammate and like after much thought as i ran
i guess im letting go.
sometimes, if you grab someone's wrist too hard, you will only be hurting that person.
or if you are holding on to a hand that does not want to hold yours, you will fall.
simply said, by trying to grasp a happiness that does not belong to you, in the end,
you will be the one that is getting the biggest hurt.

life sucks, but what to do? i will still carry on with my life, like ive never met you.
and maybe in the end, i will be glad i choose this way.

on another note, im excited bout wednesday! class outing iceskating! WHEE.
who says you cant smile when the world is upside down?

someday we will know why i wasnt meant for you...

2006-10-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

haze haze go away! don come again!
in case ure really stuck at home and have not look out of the window once,
or on the tv or listen to the radio
singapore is gettin de haze. like psi reachin 150.
the last time was seven years ago? woweewow.

anyway cant imagine seeing pple wearing face masks! lol
which is a good thing. eg late for school run away from tchrs they dunno who it is.
and also helps to save ur day by not lookin at the usual irritating faces. okay joking
but still i wouldnt wanna wear, we don need so many dentists!

trg in de morning, despite the haze.
i see no loong at trg, and yesterday he seemed eager to have trg cancelled due to haze lol.
anyway timing same as de other time, except divya was way in front.
lol but i quite contented alr, tho i still need to train hard!
after dat went for breakfast with divya tog with rh and other vj xc pple. lol fun.
rh takes every opportunity to suan divya. ha ha ha.

dance in de evening, now we are learnin rumba!
de pace much slower and all. oh and angie vic shisi joined too! hahas.
the class so much bigger. anyway i missed samba. nvm can dance durin free time.
den later dinner with shisi den chatted alot. hahas.
wanted to go home den farrell was in a nearby area and he hadnt eaten dinner
so i decided to be nice to accompany a sick and lonely fellow! <-just kidding. lol anyway nice to meet up and all. today like some meet up day! rh farrell shisi etc. :D

and niceness has its rewards! one particular sms totally makes my day.
was smiling like nuts on the train back home i hope no one sees it.
okay some indian guy did. and he laughed at me! pffts.

2006-10-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

happy mooncake festival! :D

lol actually i don even know today is mooncake festival until yesterday
i don eat mooncakes anyway. and no more lanterns for 17years old.
btw my 16year old sis went to extract her tooth lol omgg
it was supp to fall out long ago; so there is a second one behind de falling one
looks quite weird; and she has been whining bout it ever since.

the befrienders thing ended so early today la. dot.
de dance thing is on monday and tuesday. lol okay.

just now my mum and my bro went to de nearby park for my bro to play lantern and all
promised my bro tat i would go down later to accompany him
hahas actually i was just joking, but den i decided to go down
he was so happy to see me! and my mum said
'just now he was sayin 'jiejie lie to me, don want come down' '
omgg thank goodness i came down! lol. he played until so happy
moral of the story: don lie to a child. lol

and my phone is like going to spoil anytime soon.
the screen often gets screwed up even i get goosebumps looking at it.
eeeeew.

weird to say this, but i cant wait to go to sch!
holidays are gettin boring. lol.

2006-10-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

ure my motivation ((:

pw stuffs dint even get into my brains lar.wasnt even listening
after dat went to town with cheryl! to get stuffs for her ___
and ohhh den we watched stay alive lol omgg
nice movie. we freaked ourselves out.

den went for trg which i dint intend to go
but divya came! omggg talked so many stuffs!
all de way divya patience is a virtue! :DDD
and yes it applies to me too (:
anyway just wna thank her for pacing me thruout
i improved alot for tis trg! wheee
and not forgetting my motivation too! lol okay.

befrienders at 1.15pm tmr. cheryl is ponnin -.-
seeyou! tired.

2006-10-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

the result for my dance is out! :D
i got 93 marks! upon 100! lol i dint expect tt
i wasnt expecting anything tho. merely hoping for a more den 80
so tada a pleasant surprise ((((:
thanks to everyone who prayed/wished me luck :D

anyway the movie just now was borringgg
but i had a good cry so there (:

now time to smile! i hope.

pw stuffs tmr at 830am! den some befrienders stuffs. i think. okay seeyou (:

2006-10-04T13:59:00.000+08:00

been feeling real lousy these few days
its like i can watch a show with happy ending and i can still cry
and like talking to pple on msn i get emo and all
even dom had to resort to showing me shinchan [la bi xiao xin] vid
but thanks anyway. i like the vid.

anyway michh gotten detention today (lol) so yea we havin lunch another day
and today is a wednesday i feel like gg iceskating
but cheryl is out at wild wet with her shawn and i think angie is doin her stuffs
& most of de pple still havin promos & the person i wanted to ask would nvr say yes
if not im gg to rot myself at a nearby shoppin mall, watch a movie and cry my lungs out
or if you are nice to accompany this retarded girl to ice skate, call me.

byebye.

2006-10-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

ok fine im bloging.
feel like neglecting this blog for good becos don really feel like typing my stuffs out
i dunno, or maybe cos my sis's laptop sucks so much
anyway my exam is pretty okay.
i was almost freaking out tho just before the dance
and cheryl and angie surprised me by coming!
they totally cheated me by sayin they had church lol
okay so yea. and my dance was like so longgg
as in you stop when the examiner pressed the bell
but mine was stopped after like so long? i freaking wanted to die
anyway after i got the vid from wanqi i will upload it yea
and the pictures too (:

after dat was movie with cheryl and angie
AND I HAVE NO COMMENTS ON WHAT HAPPENED DURING THE MOVIE AND AFTER THAT.

yesterday. first trg after like 10000 years.
okay wasnt very bad for first trg. need to train much harder.
den meet cheryl at tampines mall which is so freaking far from my house
but i went there anyway, feeling lousy so yea
den went to cut hair at kimage but ended up us in gettin retarded haircuts
cheryl was so sad she cried. i cant even be bothered
at most cut botak. den be nun lor. no difference.

oh den my dad was pissed at my lateness in reachin home
so he refused to let me to go out today
which is supp to be class outing but whatever.
cheryl decided to be nice and pay a visit! :D
lol we watched abit of magician of love
omggg its a freaking nice show must watch it!
i love de female lead lar, so pretty so nice!
i wish i can be like her. but OHWELLS.

anyway im like readin all my personal diaries of the past
like all the way from pri four to sec three?
crazy i sounded super naive back then in pri sch.
amazing how ive grown. the character i mean.

okayy meetin michh tmr for lunch! long time no see.

2006-10-01T09:13:00.000+08:00

hello all! :D
im gonna post a super long entry [or so i think]
before i go to put my dress , do my hair + put make up and stuffs!
ahhh cant believe im doing dance exam! lol
feel so different from running a race and all.
anyway pray that i will do well! and don fall down. lol
den later im meeting cheryl and angie to watch stay alive! im gna scream

anyway first thing first, to the impt pple in my life
happy birthday xide! (sept 30)
happy birthday divya! (sept 22)

alright heres a summary of the exams i took:
gp: it was okay, the compre was hard tho, summary was nuts.
econs: im lucky! i dint noe i've to do TWO out of three qns so i only studied one topic in depth. thankfully that topic came out 2 questions!
maths: good game.
chem: byebye abcedes. hello u.
physics: WHY LIKE THAT!

okayy so im guessing im gna be future classmates of pple like hanwei. LOL.-.-
anyway after de physics paper cheryl angie and i went to town! yepp :D
shop ard for stuffs and ohyes we drank oreo bubble tea! yumyum
den ohyea we took neoprints! lol omggg.
the fun part was in decorating the neos. ohyea cant post it here cos im still using my sis laptop
im gg to send mine for repair tmr. and den i will give my whole blog an extreme makeover! :D
den angie needa see doctor so cheryl and i went to meet shawn who i think was super mean dat day
insensitive ____ & adsafdgafuas. period.
but well, maybe cos he was angry cheryl made him waited for 1.5hr
lol whatever, having boyfriend is such a chore! like one more mother.
oh yea we watced john tucker must die. lol hilarious!
john tucker is a popular dude in his school but he toys with girls' feelings
watch how the girls take their revenge but yet making him more popular!
ending wasnt as good tho. yea.
den i went to practise dance den joined dem + two other church frens of cheryl for dinner
yea den i went home to make xide's bdae present!
which i made until 3am. ha ha ha.

so yesterday i met jie in the morning to head to xide house for a surprise bdae visit!
hahah omg realised i can just take a bus to his house near my house. -.-
anyway he was still sleeping when we came! aha his maid let us in -.-
his house is very pretty and i like it not because its big 'like a mansion' <-stated by jie
but because its very heartwarming as there are photos along the walls of the staircase and in the rooms,
all the pictures of the whole family or the three brothers-all the range of pictures, when the bros are kids, when they are toddlers and when they are teenagers! cool x 10000
anyway xide was still sleepin in his room and we sneaked in
omggg his sleeping face was so funny and all i cudnt stop luffing
so jie took the job of waking him up by bouncing on his bed. -.-
xide opened his eyes saw us and muttered 'tell me im dreaming'
closed his eyes and opened again, jie said' we are still here'
ahahs den both of us sang happy birthday! hahahhaha
haha den i gave him the thing i made. hope he likes it!
lol saw his mum, a pretty and funny woman!

haha cool so we went up to the antic
where xide place his 8feet pool table!
omggg we played pool or rather i got trashed becos xide is like some pro.
obviously when you have your own pool table at home.
den also in de antic there is a bigggggg screen!
like omg and de speakers like hidden in de ceiling like tat
cos when play de radio and in de air-conned room playing pool
feeling super shiok, blasting the music. omggg i love dat room
den we three watched scary movie 4 in de antic ahahs omgg funny movie
ohh and there was this ultra big kangeroo in the antic!
taller and bigger den me! called russ. gotten from perth. lol i want!

ohh den lunchtime xide's other schoolmates came over for a surprise visit too! :D actually jie and i knew bout them coming cos one of de guys told jie
they brought cake! haha and a car plate dat wrote 'xide17' for xide. cool
xide's mum cooked pizza pasta and nuggets! yummy.
den de lunch was so funny just watchin jie + some ian guy bicker.
lol retarded. den some of us just slacked ard in xide's room and all.
okay i guess xide had a wonderful bdae yesterday! :D

okay sheesh 10am alr, gonna do my stuffs! seeyou (:

2006-09-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

warning: rants ahead;

my mp3 spoiled YET AGAIN
and to think my laptop is like crashedddd
means all my songs, dl-ed, received etc are all gonnnneeee
why why why! >:((
i want ipod i want ipod i want ipod
oh whatever not like my dad nor santa claus is reading this

&&&& why is promos starting TMR??!

& why am i feeling so melancholic yet typing a post full of angst

baa baa black sheep.

2006-09-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

this song is dedicated to all the important pple in my life
who never fail to be there whenever i need them =)

*-my family, cheryl, baoo, angie, michh, suiis, liwen, divya, sara, jie, xide, ronghua, farrell
& many others who have made an impact in my life along the way
[haha apart from cheryl and angie, all these pple are those ive known for at least 3 years, with liwen the longest, 8years:D]

because you live- jesse mccartney

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

dedicate this to ur loved ones too; show 'em how important they are to you (:

2006-09-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

hey all. bad news
my laptop crashed, just when i was bout to print my pw wr on monday mornin.
=((((((((
and yea it drove my pw members crazy, sorry yea.
anyway problem was finally solved in the end.
not my laptop tho. =( all the stuffs are gone
even my new blogskin html. ouchhhh.
im using my sis laptop which is kinda crappy so im not using it for long either
all the best for promos/exams yea, i will be back, somehow someday. =)

2006-09-16T12:29:00.000+08:00

super duper old song; super duper old video.
don think many of you would like this kind of song
but i put it up cos at the time when she left i was listening to this song
and now im listening to it again.
warning: very very melancholic. i think its de song dat can make me cry
esp when im listening to it and thinkin of stuffs.

okay i noe im not supp to be bloggin and start studyin
but since i found de vid why not put it up?

dance later, guess its de only thing i ever look forward to now.

besides post promos, of course.

2006-09-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

'by understanding death do we appreciate life'

life has its unpredictabilites.
today has brought back alot of memories to me
& it opened old wounds tt still do hurt, somehow somewhat.
one guy in my school passed away yesterday.
spectulation was tt he killed himself.
but as cheryl and i walked to the classroom with like 2 tchrs & all in each classroom,
i have this really bad feeling.
its almost as if history is repeating itself
den when ms ng started 'we have a tragic news'
its almost as if i can just continue the sentence for her
the same exact words, tho different times, venues, different persons,
its as if the words of 2004 spoken on 11feb were breathing to me at tt moment
too much to remember. & to think i was thinking of her yesterday.

if she dint leave, she is probably in a good jc now.
maybe we would not talk so much now,
but it would be so much better dat way
rather den having it this way and kept thinking of 'what could have been'
when she left i regretted many things
what i could have done and what i could not have done
what i should not have done and what i should have done
there were still many memories of her that are still intact in my mind
& i believe no matter where she is right now
there are still many people here who still do care for her & who do still love her
& would do anything to bring her back.

anyway, i went to search my very old blog entry in my oldoldold blog:
dint noe i typed like that in sec three anyway, so weird. -.-

17february2004

To a fren out there:
hopin this letter never too late..
yet still hope it reaches yu..
to say
we'll miss yu.
as we heard de news in shock,
shreds of memories came back flashin into my mind
its amazin i've known yu for so long
for as long as it stretches to 8years,this yr de 9th
as for how we know each other,guess yu noe it best,
as we lived 2 blocks from each other
and took de same sch bus.
our parents would always brought us to this bus-stop,
and would chatter along as both of us gazed at each other with de most innocent minds
den as de years go on as we spent in de same ole school bus
i would awaez remember yu as de obedient gal with veri smart siblings
den as we went to de same sec sch..
and even de same class
guess as fate should have it,
our friendship soon begun.
yu sit jus right in front of me in de sch parade square
and we awaez like to chatter the assembly away
and recess times were spent together with a few good others..
times i wont forget.
times i will remember awaes
i'll awaez remember..
de way yu talk,yu laugh,yu walk..
the way yu like to clap your hand when yu laugh..
the way yu like to slanted to one side as yu walk
will remember
how we used to talk durin assembly in de mornin
how i liked to purposely pull out your shirt as it was on de verge of fallin out..
how we liked to compare marks with me, jokinthat i would feel happier when i knew yours..
yet yu..never complain.
will remember the veri first neoprint card i took..was took with yu.
as yu brought me to plaza singapura..
and took poker-card-size pict with me
a pity i lost them in a wallet..
and yu too.
will remember
de nonsense i said in class discussions
n yu made a real funny n dumb poem to make me shuddup
and yu laugh it off
will remember
when i disclosed how de dumb track meet pple messed up my name
from de veri day onwards,yu would call me 'Jina' and laughed like crazy
will remember
how i would like to take your wallet and look at your millions of neoprints
will remember
how we laughed dat we both had de same future ambition
and dat perhaps in de future we cud meet each other in de same line
will remember
de veri note yu left in my autograph
especially de last line
"dont yu ever dare to forget me"
i will remember them, always, close to my heart.
i dunno why yu chose to leave,but whatever yu do,i hope yu r happy.
i shall be strong for yu,
becos yu awaez bring us laughter n more laughter..
and it will awaez..stay in that way.
yu onli make us smile,laugh,and not cry.
that's yu.made yu unique.
fate has made us friends this life,
and i glad that it is so to be.
n may in our next lives,
we'll meet again..
and carry on this everlastin friendship.
love yu.
___________________

& this song i will dedicate to her, to the rj guy, to his friends & family
& to us, who still missed her dearly.

There You'll Be-faith hill

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

[Chorus:]
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

[Repeat chorus]

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

[Chorus:]
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
There you'll be

2006-09-10T20:12:00.000+08:00

THIS BLOG WILL ONLY BE UPDATED WEEKLY
UNTIL SEPTEMBER 29TH.

do come back often to check for updates tho! :D
i made a new blogskin, very tempted to change it
cos i really like it :DD but uhhh well we all shall wait till sept 29th!
tts when my exams end by the way. hahas. de academic ones i mean.
my schedule will be put up later in de post,
so yea at least u noe im still breathing somewhere.
do sign my guestbook yea don let it collect dust! :D

exam class today learnt all de steps alr
so yea next week is just practise and den poof exam! =/
i think i will die of nervousness dat day lol
& i shudnt complain cos some girl is taking THREE dances. madd
ohhh! and wanqi wanyu & me wna take rumba latin after de exams
haahas its damn nice, romantic kinda.
the sisters gna brg along their boyfriends to be their dance partners
hmmm i shall bring... myself.
well if ure interested in learning rumba [or for de fun of it]
& if ure a guy and ure my friend do tell me yea hahahahahs.
definition of 'friend' pls read up dictionary.com
okayy i was kidding bout the above part.
but if you wna learn find a partner den tell me i help you sign up? (:
hahas aye okayy dats if de class commences first
instructor felix needa check his schedule.

school's tmr! i don wna go back sch. rubbish like who want.
all de best to all who are taking olevel prelims!
& well all who are taking whatever tests + stuffs.

okayy if ure feeling stressed & all ive one pic for you:

my bro doing children rock climbing. tata see his determination!
if he can do it so can you!
byebye.
----------

my retarded week three of term four:
25th Sept Monday
exam: GP promos
time: 8.15am-11.45am

26th Sept Tuesday
exam: Econs Promos
time: 8.15am-11.05am

27th Sept Wednesday
exam: Maths Promos
time: 8.15-11.15am

28th Sept Thursday
exam: Chem Promos
time: 8.15-11.15am

29th Sept Friday
exam: Physics Promos
time: 8.15-10.54am

1st Oct Sunday
exam: Samba latin medal exam
time: 2.00-6.00pm

do support me on sunday! :D or pray for me at least.
okayy tata enjoy school! -.-

2006-09-09T15:57:00.000+08:00

no one ever cause my heart to beat faster and slower at the same time;
but you did each time you passed me by.

i think im such a retard
both me and cheryl were being random in sch yest
and start cutting our fringes in the toilet? madd.
i think i screwed mine up. whatever. maybe i will tie my fringe up! haha.

ohyea and both me and cheryl played this hellopanda game
which meiqi told us when she crashed rj the other time
basically buy the new sports version and
there are printings of hellopanda doing various kinds of sports:
rollerblading, skating, running, canoeing, volleyball, basketball,
soccer, badminton, table tennis, tennis, hockey etc.
hahahs and the game is like the number __th (u decide)
will be ur bf future to be! ahyes damn retarded de game.
but fun wad, cannot issit. -.-
actually all cheryl need to get is from canoeing lar [shawn]
hahahahs and okayyy mine was super damn fated
i got _____ not once but twice, consecutively. woweewow.
so i took a pic of it with wanting's phone. thanks! :D
happy girl in self-denial. zz.

okayyy i got like physics spa and h3 maths test on mon & tue.
byebyebyebye.

2006-09-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

even when there is someone who has hurt you in any way;
smile for those who care. (:

hahas okay real tired from a long day of crap
so i will try to make this short.
out with cheryl and angie today at orchard libary.
okay more den 3/4 of de time we were talking rather den studying hahahahs
hahas anne and wg were there too! (: cool.

anyway i highly recommend the oreo bubble tea from taka!
its 3bucks per cup, but but but its a very well deserved treat.
its like super heavenly lar, i actually bought TWO ahahhahs omg.
beany will loveeeee this for sure! heh.
& cheryl and i bought real pretty handmade flower ear stuts!
big and pretty, look so hawaii! hahas i don care im wearing dat to sch.
so happy! i loveeeee de ear stuts i cant help staring at dem <33

ohyea den cheryl went to fetch shawn from his scubadiving trip
while angie and i stayed and talked. alot.
bout alot stuffs. bout mean ___ & changed ___.
so sad how pple can change so fast! sighhaye.
anyway its like super a heart to heart talk. (:
den shawn came with cheryl and we went to catch the host movie!
omgg its SUPER DUPER NICE MOVIE u just got to watch it
yea don just mugg ur entire holiday away like some PPLE -looks at roy
just take one morning/aftn/night off to rest
catch this movie urself/family/frens, cos its darn nice! (:
its quite a big hit in korea ((:
so wads de movie bout? hahas im lazy to describe so i went to check out on de net
for info+ some pictures! so there:

'HGang-du (Song Kang-ho) works at a food-stand on the banks of the Han River. Dozing on the job, he is awakened by his daughter, Hyun-seo (Ah-sung Ko), who is angry with him for missing a teacher-parent meeting at school. As Gang-du walks out to the riverbank with a delivery, he notices that a large crowd of people has gathered, taking pictures and talking about something hanging from the Han River Bridge. The otherwise idyllic landscape turns suddenly to bedlam when a terrifying creature climbs up onto the riverbank and begins to crush and eat people. Gang-du and his daughter run for their lives but suddenly the thing grabs Hyun-seo and disappears back into the river. The government announces that the thing apparently is the Host of an unidentified virus. Having feared the worst, Gang-du receives a phone call from his daughter who is frightened, but very much alive. Gang-du makes plans to infiltrate the forbidden zone near the Han River to rescue his daughter from the clutches of the horrifying Host...'

okay pfffts found de trailer. better. hahaha so there go see!

okay the 2nd vid is not the trailer but a nicer one, can see de monstor better:

yea its darn nice! very funny, horrifying and saddening all together in a film.
you wont want to miss it (: hahas okay i shall credit cheryl cos she suggested seeing it!
lol. den went home with angie while cheryl and shawn had their personal night out (lol)
have another heart to heart talk with angie! hahahahs
talked bout there are still many pple who care (:
[tt explains de quote above]
ohyea she is at meiqi's house now, cool! yea enjoy ya.

okay im supp to do pw now i guess. haha i suck.

2006-09-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

tuesday + holiday = great day for gelare!

:DDD yumms ate waffle icecream! with bao at gelare. yummsyumms.
anyway speaking which, promised her this thailand trip entry.
hahas yes im gna rewinddddddd >>>>>>

she was talkin bout this junior who wna exchange keychains for
the tshirts de subanburi sports sch [a sports sch in thai] made
in exchange with the cedar trackers.
so yea unwritten rule of exchangin stuffs bet counterparts
apparently de junior wna 2 shirts. but keychains like abit not good.
den i rmbed this:

HOW I GOT 2 SHIRTS WITHOUT GIVING ANYTHING:

u see im a lazy girl; while all de trackers were busy shoppin to get stuffs
for the future thai counterparts they would be meeting
there i was, slack and yawn my life thruout until when i boarded de plane
den to my horror[<- okay exaggeration], i din get anything.
so yea. whatever damn long i shall cut short. [i mean de entry]

okay so yea some thai counterparts were nice. we trained tog on de same track.
so yea some of dem cant pronounce my name but yea its okay.
hmmmmmmmms so one trg i was stretching my leg at de staircase
there came 2 thai guys who walked past and uhh one of dem turned in my direction and smiled
well being de nice person i was, am and always be, i smiled back
den uhh he asked for name, of cos normal lar. dat time everyone is askin everyone's name.
okay yea. so nothing.
but BUT BUT BUT i dunno how come on de last 2nd day,
when we had friendly comp with de thai pple
which i got owned, like obviously
but its like i got alot of thai pple calling my name and all? like wth?
apparently they were calling me and asked me to look at some guy
yes dat guy i mentioned earlier. yahh i was like ignoring.

okay den uhhh when we are all about to take a grp pic
here came the guy and a girl
the girl talked to me, with de guy just nodding and lookin at me
'ohh this shirt is for you.'
i was like 0.0 okay i dint expect dat. okay quite happy lar got free shirt,
somemore white colour! whooo i love white shirts.
okay so yea i thanked dem and was bout to leave where de girl was like
'w..wait! uhh. in exchange for ur hair band.' she pointed at my hairband.
i was like LOL. that wasnt mine, that was suihui's! omggg.
hahas so yea i told dem it was my fren's one and she was like oookayy.
and de guy looked disappointed. LMAO. hairband, for wad?!
to wear? im sure. to break? more likely.
anyway! so then we took de pic, den de guy dunno pop up from where
den i tell u, i was damn deeply tramatised.
seriously, no one has tried to stand so close to me before i think i cudn breathe.
and like i was supp to smile at de cam. like HOW HOW HOW.
okay i was really get-me-out-of-here, but yea pictures seem to take an eternity.

okay now the climax;
when pictures were done, apparently alot pple were still dere
den de guy's frens pushed him towards me and like
uhh he asked for a handshake.
i obliged lar, like no harm. so yea i shook his hand,
and AT THIS TIME I DUNNO WHY
SO MANY CEDAR TRACKERS CROWD OVER
and at this time with him STILL HOLDING MY HAND
he blurted out 'i love you'
dhsguaihdfiughdisojadihfvdijwsfvghdejdhbfvjdhvfbdjsklhfbds.
and all de other cedarians instead of pulling me away from this hell
all cheered whooooo and all. darn.
okay i just like dere luffed to hide embarrassment
den tried to get out of dere in de quickest possible time
so much so that i left my water bottle behind[sorry no cinderella story]
and HAVE TO WASH THE TOILET as a punishment from tchr -________-

WHY MY LIFE SO SUAY.

okay whatever. at least i got a free shirt.
anyway de guy got his deserving jack when we were bidding our farewell
he wanted to help me carry my SUPER HEAVY luggage down de long flight of stairs
i gave a cold 'NO NEED' and just carried de damn thing down. myself. retarded.

okay now de 2nd shirt:
it was from this girl nim! =D
shes such a sweet girl! she gave me even tho she knew i have nothing to exchange for!
and she was kind of a counterpart of both me and suiis, yea
so like when we are bout to leave de three of us took pic tog
and den later she cried! =( so sad.
i think shes damn nice lar. ahhas. i rmbed when suiis asked for her name
she said 'nim' den suiis asked again and again and she kept sayin 'nim'
lol retarded, cos suiis tot she said 'name?' HAHHAS.

okay that was secthree thai trip
sadly dint go to thai in sec4!
if we did, i would gotten something real nice, like a plushy toy for nim.
wonder hows she doing now!
aye baoo they all so lucky went there this year! hahahs.

okayyy long entry! i bet not many reads it but haha not meant for ur eyes anyway.
there u go baoo! hahahs.
okay tmr studying at orchard libary with cheryl and angie! bb.

2006-09-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

http://stinkandspill.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=246

calling all cedarians/excedarians/pple who like cedarians!
yea click the above link to vote cedar as the coolest uniform! :D
its leading by the way. hahas.
oh yea and de pic they provided, lol im inside, no?
cos thats de psl board picture! hahas don try to find me
cos i got a hard time finding myself too. lol
but i rmbed i stood somewhere inside, aye whatever.

anyway i got my right ear pierced again.
cos the hole closed and yea i pierced again.
the feeling was adgjafffafhdhfjshfjhfd.
and it still hurts alottttttttttttt occasionally. awwww.

ohh and i gotten this off-shoulder top at a sale price of 6bucks! :D cool right.

2006-09-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

oh yes this is my favourite samba song (:
hahas managed to find it on the net
yay can practise my dance at home with this song
its around the same one as the cd in the dance studio
nice right. hahas. the other samba songs are fast too
but this one has de romantic feeling inside

anyway im like using tissues alr =( stupid nose.
okay im very tired now. shall sleep,tmr morning still got exam class!

2006-09-01T22:35:00.001+08:00

waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought; useless and disappointing.

im falling sick =(
running a fever. flu and a bad sore throat.
gahh i hate falling sick.
thanks to de blogskinners who advised many stuffs
tho ben's one was quite rubbish: eat b&j icecream.

i need to rest.

maybe when i say goodbye; maybe its my turn to fly.

2006-08-31T16:06:00.000+08:00

they say to turn the time back and choose another route
life would be different; but i would never meet you.

wahh ben made a blogskin damn cute lar. got sotd.
damn nice shud go check out his skin esp if u like mrbrown!
[hmms i alr know who does. lol.]
click on illusionation.

anyway uhh yesterday was kinda sick and tired
so dint blog. thanks to anqing for lending me ur shoulder to lie/sleep on during the seminar!
hahahas. so sweet of her. i think my head was slipping off her shoulder many times
and she moved my head back. LOL!
ohh and thanks shawn for trying to help to accompany me to get blue slip (:
but no thanks to somebody who refused to believe i was sick. gahh retard.

anyway den went for singapore dreaming premiere with mum sis and bro
together with de cast and crew + director of golden village + reporters + dunnowho.
i think its weird watching a movie with de characters in de SAME THEATRE as you
like uhm. i dunno. you go then you will know lar.
i was trying hard not to look too bored in case it offend some people.
ohh and one rj arts class was there too! lol their learning journey?
cos their teacher knew one of de reporters so yea.
anyway i think de movie was just uhm okay, perhaps its not my type.
but de arts class people think its nice.. so i dunno.
den got some reception with de cast and all. pretty cool like all de high class pple.
then got wine! red white and all. wth i feel like taking it and drink and go crazy.
but no you drown your sorrows like that. you cant be drunk your entire life.

today. teachers day celeb! ahas.
im glad i came. cos its fun! first time rj celeb is fun.
the vid was a super theme and its super funny. lol.
and i like de magician show. he threw poker cards damn far can
one of dem hit beany den they passed ard den i took it LOL.
its a hearts card and de picture behind its like some sort of angelic cupid thing
it super feel and look like those old kind black magic!
like some love charm LMAO. so i kept it tada!
and de dances by tchrs were real funny. ahhas mrjarrodlee was hilarious.
and he acted for sth in which he later sang. then we gave standing ovation hahas
i think he got fans liao. z not us. but i heard some girls talkin bout him.
we got presents for de tchrs i hope they like it.
andisawyoumanytimestodayyayhappy.buticantjustseemtosayhilarokisuck.
okay den me and yanyi went to get flowers and went down to cedar! (:
seen quite a few tchrs. ohman mschng cannot rmb my name! sad =(
she said she rmbed me but not my name lol.
but den later she also don rmb clearly minghui and suchen's one. lol
only rmb chemical elements names only tsktsk.
saw msthang! mrtay! mdmlam! han lao shi!
and saw many other excedarians. cool so many things have changed.
but dint get to go out with dem lar quite sad. nvm after promos.
and today michh knocked into my drink which spilled on her LOL
so not surprising, which reminded me how tt time she spilled her rice on me.
some things just nvr change lol.
and then chatted with yanyi bout lots of stuffs. hmms.

okay now that holidays have come and promos are like NEARING
its time to hit the new but really dusty books.
maybe i shud stop blogging alr. hahahs.

2006-08-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

because the whole life ive been waiting for is someone like you, like you.

-.- cheryl ah.
she dint even inform me she wasnt comin to school
and i waited for her until like -.- 7.41am
when school supp to start at 745. ahdhsad.
and i was freaking at de mrt station junction there.
james was there urging me to stop waiting and start running.
relented and ran with him like mad.
and like. my hair was not tied. and i walked in like an idiot in front of everyone
looking shagged, messy and all.
wow its as good as walking into de school canteen with ur facial cream still on.
-strangles cheryl-
okay apparently she was sick and she knocked out before telling me.
anyway i also looked stoopid infront of pple anyway.
not like it made any difference right? right.
okay so uhh cheryl get well soon!

meiqi[angie's best friend] crashed rj today!
ahahs we had a great time. sadly cheryl not here.
omgg we were like cam-whoring. shall upload pics soon if ive de time.
hahas if her appeal to rj was successful dat time it would be a foursome lar!
den we wont be ppg we will be uhm, happyfour? lol i dunno.
but still its a fun day. andi,orratherqi,didsthbold.ohnoidamnscaredwadifwadif.ohwels.

after school some of us went to get stuffs for our teachers.
ahahs quite retarded some of de gifts.
ohh den i went to de lifebookshop. and got myself one christian cd. (:
nice! i love de songs. have been so busy that i dint even have time for God. i suck.
i guess i chose to step in the bookshop cos it always made me felt so at ease and at peace
esp since now im feeling so.. lost. and sad, and all.

okay pw due tmr. sucks. i cant even get anything into my brain.
theres a anti-pw petiton? u can go check my class blog.
but aye vote for wad. not like i vote alr it will affect me in any way.
sheesh off to pw. i try to think of sth. maybe sleep or sth den do.

2006-08-28T20:40:00.000+08:00

love is. seeing things that people dont.
i dunno. i seem to be crazier over you day by day.
long boring day. life nvr gets interesting when it is nearing exams.
and my physics mock spa today. oh my holy goodness its super hard.
did real badly for it. sighayeaye.
and den pw stuffs which i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
its like neverending ehh? i don even feel like going to school sian.
but. you are the reason i go to school for.
anyway have a old song here. but a nice song! enjoy. (:

sometimes-britney spears

You tell me youre in love with me
That you cant take your pretty eyes away from me
Its not that I dont want to stay
But everytime you come to close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say
Because it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move it slow
Theres things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run sometimes I hide
Sometimes Im scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

I dont wanna be so shy, uh-uh
Everytime I am alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You see that, youre the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move it slow
Theres things about me, you just have to know

Sometimes I run (sometimes) sometimes I hide
Sometimes Im scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
All I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby, all I need is time

Just hang around and youll see
Theres nowhere ill ever be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you

Oh, yeah

Sometimes I run (sometimes) sometimes I hide
Sometimes Im scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight (hold ya tight)
Treat you right, be with you day and night (day and night)
Sometimes I run sometimes I hide (sometimes)
Sometimes Im scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight treat you right,
Be with you day and night (day and night)
All I really want is to hold you tight treat you right,
Be with you day and night
Baby, all I need is time

because. that was wad i hope ure thinking.

2006-08-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

lol WG showed me this vid! damn funny omg.

and HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY BEN! ((: have a great day ahead.